I am normally an angry person and over the years I have taught myself to internalise this anger so many of my friends and other people haven't seen me angry. But the people who have known me for a long time now, know that I am an angry person. Anyway, I feel like I am angrier when I am at home. Like all my issues come back or maybe it is that I have taught myself to hide my anger so well that I have almost no trace of anger in my system! This can also be because I had a phase where I was supposed to suppress al my feelings so instead of getting angry, I used to get sad. But somehow back home, I am always angry. I am angry at my parents all the time and I have my tantrums. Is it that I have had a mask on for the longest time? OR what is it?
But I have realised that I can't live with all this anger bubbling inside of me, so I have started dancing or doing other things when I am angry, sometimes there is no escaping it but I am still less angry than I used to be. The only queer thing is that no one else will describe me as an angry person, and often times, I am not an angry person either.