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@crazy_cat_lady2002
VPoints 38
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Vent 6
Frustrated
11 months ago
My medicine doesn't help and I'm super depressed.

I want to dye my hair because I like doing it... But my boyfriend hates it so I'm not going to. I feel like shit. I'm not seeing my mother this weekend and she's mad at me. I've done nothing but sit here in my pajamas and play Minecraft all fucking day. I can't not be doing something or else I get depressed because I don't have anything to stop me from thinking. I didn't sleep good last night. I need friends my age to talk to. I have no one.

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@crazy_cat_lady2002
VPoints 38
Supporters 2
Vent 6
Disgusted
11 months ago
In a depressed mood right now, sorry if I bother anyone else.

I don't feel needed. I don't feel loved. I don't feel wanted. I don't feel like I should be here anymore. So why am I still here? 😔

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@crazy_cat_lady2002
VPoints 38
Supporters 2
Vent 6
Disgusted
11 months ago
I really don't like myself right now.

Getting pushed away by someone you love can't care about makes you feel unwanted, not needed. Worthless.. that's how I feel right now. I hate myself for having mental health problems. I hate myself for being needy and clingy. I hate myself for being me.

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@crazy_cat_lady2002
VPoints 38
Supporters 2
Vent 6
Frustrated
11 months ago
This is a vent that contains information that might be triggering to some people.

Absolutely HATE my obgyn place and doctor. Everyone is so freaking rude. I have severe PTSD, and the doctor I have will push me so much to get a IUD no matter how much I tell her no. She called a psychiatrist and scheduled me a appointment with her to get me some medicine after I told her no I already have one. I've never gotten a physical exam because of my PTSD and parents. My parents are highly unsupportive of me being uncomfortable with it. One time I got into a huge embarrassing argument with a receptionist. She told me I needed to schedule my appointment for a physical and I told her no. She asked me why and I said I have PTSD, I'm not comfortable with it and I will have a break down in which someone will have to take me to the hospital. She laughed at me said "well I think that's bullcrap and getting a physical is good for your health." Another time I needed a ultrasound to make sure that I didn't have a problems with my uterus. The lady was extremely nice and respectful of me. My parents however... Screamed at me because I asked them to stand outside. I was embarrassed because they had taught me that sex is bad, and that it shouldn't happen before marriage.(Everything was fine with it) she screamed at me and I let everything out. The doctor came in and saw me having a panic attack and made her wait in the corner of the room. My parents know what happened, one doesn't believe me that it did or of my mental health issues, the other refuses to talk about it and gets mad every time it comes up because I didn't tell them sooner. I didn't because I was scared. I didn't feel human. I felt dirty. I felt like it was my fault even though I know it wasn't. Sorry I had to get this out it bothered me.

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@crazy_cat_lady2002
VPoints 38
Supporters 2
Vent 6
Frustrated
11 months ago
I am extremely overwhelmed today 😔

Today is my long distance boyfriend and I's 11 months anniversary. He's coming down to meet me for the first time with his family in 16 days. I'm excited but also terrified because I'm scared thqtu family won't like him and will force me to stop talking to him. (That won't happen I'll talk to him anyway.) I'm almost 18 and he's the only thing that make me happy. I've had a really shitty afternoon. My parents yelled at me while I was doing homework to clean. It's now dinner time, I'm almost done cleaning but I still have homework to do. I keep overthinking, my head is killing me. I just want the anxiety to stop. I just want them to accept him. I want them to stop yelling at me left and right. I just want everything to stop rn

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@crazy_cat_lady2002
VPoints 38
Supporters 2
Vent 6
Frustrated
11 months ago
I am extremely overwhelmed today 😔

Today is my long distance boyfriend and I's 11 months anniversary. He's coming down to meet me for the first time with his family in 16 days. I'm excited but also terrified because I'm scared thqtu family won't like him and will force me to stop talking to him. (That won't happen I'll talk to him anyway.) I'm almost 18 and he's the only thing that make me happy. I've had a really shitty afternoon. My parents yelled at me while I was doing homework to clean. It's now dinner time, I'm almost done cleaning but I still have homework to do. I keep overthinking, my head is killing me. I just want the anxiety to stop. I just want them to accept him. I want them to stop yelling at me left and right. I just want everything to stop rn

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