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Vent 136
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A twenty-year-old cancerian.<div>Exploring my thoughts!</div>
Daily Drag
@Amy
VPoints 2189
Supporters 88
Vent 136
Calm
18 hrs ago
A poem about last summer, how different it was!

Tumbling through the pebbles and the grainy land,
We ran all across the strands of the scorching sun,
The rays seemed like a roaring monster,
The tanned skin was the biggest remorse,
Amidst it all, came the unravelling frost of streets,
The colorful spectrum of lively fruits spread all across
The queen of lime accompanying the chivalry
Do you recall the razzmatazz of the vacations?
The blend of fiesta and little treats?
How the glimpse of dawn signaled the playful hours?
How the flames of overplay wreathed the house?
The nefarious strategies to stay a little bit more,
In the paradise of freedom and the tangy salt of air;
The sky was a little overcast,
Life was a perfectly woven tapestry.
The agony of using “was” instead of “is”,
Last Summer is indeed a prevailing dream!

Daily Drag
@Amy
VPoints 2189
Supporters 88
Vent 136
Frustrated
23 hrs ago
Are these online depression quizzes even validated?

I don't know the difference between being sad or being depressed as I genuinely think anxiety, overthinking, insecurity all together combine in some way or the other. However I have been feeling really low since the past week and I don't have a reason to be sad and it still somehow something hurts a lot and it is not just being hurt, this hopelessness, loss of apatite, no interest in anything whatsoever!

So i randomly searched for some online quizzes to take the depression test, I took 4-5 of them and all showing that I'm at high risk and that I should consider talking to a therapist lol. I thought maybe the algorithm is at fault and I asked my friends well their results were low or very low. I'm not that bad to be honest. Its just a phase right? Who doesn't feel drained once in a while? But I don't know I might even be living in denial too since its really hard to an*lyze your own self! I can't even ask if I changed to my friends and family as I keep my real identity and issues with me and I'm pretty great at acting normal. So I really would love to know if these results are true or not!

Confession
@Amy
VPoints 2189
Supporters 88
Vent 136
Frustrated
yesterday
I'm so scared of what is happening to me

This is legit the worst month of the yeah, well as per my luck I must ass “YET” to it cz I’m definitely hopeful for it to worsen even more. I literally hate myself and everything about myself, my body, my face, my emotional stability, even my mentality no wait my mentality is fine it just zones out with most of the people but that is okay though but the rest of it, I HATE MYSELF!

I have been so frustrated this past month and I genuinely need a break from all of it! Unfortunately, I am bound to some works and responsibilities and I can’t just leave but I’m idk exhausted would be an under-statement right now. I have been crying myself to sleep every day from the past week. Every time I wake up I feel so tired, my wh*le body is in excruciating pain, eyes hurt and are warm, I have this feeling as if I would just puke! I have been eating healthy, with daily routine of exercises and other productive activities but this is just getting worse day by day!

I want to top talking to everyone and just an*lyse what I want but what if I end up losing everything as you know time waits for none! I often say that if people don’t stay, let them go as the right ones will stay. But no! They won’t! That’s how life is, everyone leaves, even I do, cz we seek for something that makes us feel worthy and that is exactly how it should be, but what if I’m not ready for that change?
Every day I wake up, act pepped up but I’m just drowning too deep!

Confession
@Amy
VPoints 2189
Supporters 88
Vent 136
Calm
2 days ago
Would you rather lose the love if it takes away all your pain or would you not?

Well suppose you are to go on a trip with your best friends and with them would come the people you hate the the most! And on the other hand you go with random acquaintances? Well you will obviously choose the first one right? Well I used to too however soon I realized that I'm too insecure and complex in my own head! No matter how beautiful souls are around me, I would still hover around and get affected by the negativity. I know its wrong and yeah I'm trying to change that but well that's what used to happen.

And then I decided to take a break and take the second option instead and things were good initially. I was not constantly frustrated or over reacting I was at peace. Maybe I wasn't laughing anymore but at least I wasn't crying, till; I realized how lost I was. I realized how I became so flexible and adaptable to everything ordinary that I had no control over feeling angry or sad or anything! That's when I started realized I could not even cry anymore or if I did, it wasn't real at all, it was me trying to convince myself I was sad but I wasn't cz I was just nothing, an empty soul!

So what you want to do is totally on your palms. I just shared my experience. Just remember one thing, pain is hard, but to feel something is better than being numb.

Daily Drag
@Amy
VPoints 2189
Supporters 88
Vent 136
Calm
2 days ago
These are some of the overthinking I do!

So have you ever been in one of those phases where things start to fade away?? Like the memories maybe of someone or some toy or the particular taste of your favorite candy that you just can't remember how it felt like? Maybe it was a gradual process, losing that essence but the snapping realization just makes you feel of that void? Isn't it scary how you no longer would remember that happiness, that love, that eternal hope, that taste on your lips and you might never find the same thing again!!

Idk how we are supposed to feel. They say let it go, better things await. Maybe they're not better, maybe we just convince ourselves it would be better cz we don't feel like dealing with the complexity of the best!

Sometimes things/people stay after a thousand times you push them away. Is their affection stronger than their own self respect? If yes, isn't that obsession? Sometimes people/things claim to be the one, and not once do they ask you to stay. Are they so heartless to just let go of anything without even trying?

We have billions of days, to meet billions of new faces, to experiment billions of new adventures but why are we all stuck up in the one dimensional cage of misery? Do something, it fails, do something else whatever you can get your hands on. Why can't we just dive into real things just breaking all the restrictions and do what we really want!!

To all the people who think they don't know what they want.. you do! You just don't think about it too often cz it hurts to realize that you will have to let go of your passion just to be in the disguise of a good person!

Confession
@Amy
VPoints 2189
Supporters 88
Vent 136
Calm
3 days ago
Pretending to be an extrovert gets so exhausting sometimes.

I don't know i started to be known as the bubbly talkative girl while i remember to rehearse saying "present ma'am" so that i don't embarrass myself next day. Well it all started with a heartbreak when the guy I liked liked the most chill girl and I was like cool let's change ourselves and hence I started pretending to be chill. I don't know when it became my overall personality and not just an act but somewhere inside I can feel the old me scream you know?

It's just I have become that support system to make everyone laugh and that is basically my responsibility so when I'm depressed I gotta make jokes about it as well. I mean of course my friends know when I'm hurt but well I always keep laughing and its tiring. And I have this weird feeling of not wanting to disappoint anyone. Earlier I used to cry and whine and get upset over silly things a lot, I still do but now its more humorous as everyone says, like nobody wants to be with people who are too much into self-dr*ma, but idk, sometimes I want to let it out and now I just can't!

I love being alone, like not wanting to talk to anyone! I avoid calls and meets a lot! Cz when I do I have this "OMG! How have you been!!!" fake enthusiastic voice ugh drains off all my energy!

Relationship Significant Others
@Amy
VPoints 2189
Supporters 88
Vent 136
Calm
3 days ago
Why do things get awkward to discuss with your significant other?

I think its easier to communicate with a friend about our weird dark thoughts than it is with our significant others. I don't know if its because our bond with our friends is too strong that we feel no matter how dumb we are they won't leave us, if so do we change ourselves to stick with our romantic partners? Or maybe it is because we don't want to lose our partners, but does that mean we are okay losing our friends?

No matter what the actual reason is, it is a fact how we assume that our partners won't accept certain parts of us (gradually as you grow together you might I'm just referring to the majority). We hide things, even things that are normal because apparently they become a part of our lives, we are not our individual selves anymore and it is a fact! Every tiny thing we do affects them! I don't know if that's a good thing or not, I just wished if it could be calmed down through a calm discussion instead of screaming shouting assuming!

Daily Drag
@Amy
VPoints 2189
Supporters 88
Vent 136
Calm
4 days ago
Online groups with people from all over the world is such an eye-opener.

No matter how thorough you are with your newspapers or television news, you can be aware but you can't really understand what people go through in different nations. No matter how much we scream how our country is racist and biased and all the other unfair things, and how we wish to be transported to some other country as they beam of shiny glam, they have their own backwardness!

I have usually been active on an Instagr*m group with all these strangers from all over the world, we basically connected through an anime page but we just all talk casually occasionally and today we had a blasting conversation. About trump, the rules against LGBT community, how people are biased against gay people. how Muslim rules sometimes interfere with freedom, these were the concepts brought up by the respective natives themselves and it was so amazing to be opening up with such open-minded people! We all sang songs from our countries native languages, tried to copy each other's voices it was such a beautiful day!

Daily Drag
@Amy
VPoints 2189
Supporters 88
Vent 136
Disgusted
4 days ago
Why are boys treated in a bullying way whenever they act all craving for attention?

Seriously who created the trend that only girls are supposed to pull off tantrums and use the baby-voice and act all childish and cute but when guys do that they are called "gay" which is stupid af what's the relation between being gay and being childish? DUMB!

Anyway, I've seen a lot of my girlfriends telling me how their boyfriends are cute and cuddly and just act like babies with them and when I look at them I'm like whaaaat!!?? I mean they all act so tough right? Or maybe they just don't want to show their vulnerable side to just about anyone which is okay their opinion great but the problem comes up when they start getting ashamed about it. It's just really sad how they have to hide those cute pictures and videos so they don't get judged. Basically judged on how you are? Just cz you are a boy and you're expected to be the alpha right? It would be soo cool and glorified if their video had them choking or empowering on a girl right? But acting all aww-my-baby-come-here is all of a sudden big deal.

GROW UP PEOPLE!

Daily Drag
@Amy
VPoints 2189
Supporters 88
Vent 136
Calm
5 days ago
The drafts reveal a part of our personalities that no one knows.

Honestly if clearly thought about it, personality is a wh*le ocean with numerous uncountable aspects. There are a lot of attributes that we expect people to understand and sometimes they don't and gradually over the time we hide those parts of ourselves and tend to become more like what is accepted in the society. But the hidden scars never vanish, they just fade away!

If you think about it, why do therapist recommend you write your thoughts? Because you have to do something to track what you are and who you are becoming. Thoughts are fragile and just in a snap they are gone but in order to maintain that balance you got to think about it and note it down. All those things that you want to say but never do, all the hidden mails and text messages that you have in your drafts, maybe because you don't want to sound too vulnerable or because you don't know how the other person will react, that is the real you! And we all have become so obsessed with hiding that emotional part of ourselves that we are drifting through the waves of hatred!

Daily Drag
@Amy
VPoints 2189
Supporters 88
Vent 136
Calm
5 days ago
Candies that we used to eat while we were old, I wish they still reappeared somehow!

These days, for chocolate days, or valentines, or when our guests visit us, we get subjected to dairy milk and tablerone and all those yummy enriched candies and chocolates right? And all of sudden I was just walking through an unknown street today and there was this half-broken down old shot and it had a "candyman" candy with various orange and mango flavors. I took one of it and damn! I remembered the taste! All of a sudden I was taken aback to my good old days.

Then I kept thinking of all the yum packets that are not that available. Well Lays and Kurkure are still there but I often miss the Uncle chips and Oyes (cocktail flavor especially). These are really rare and since I have shifted to kerala, nobody has even heard of OYES! like what!!!?? Then eclairs are all over the world but do you remember chocoliebe? and all the crazy tattoos and toys that used to be free. I also have this vivid memory of me hating the green jelly cups and embracing the red ones while both tasted absolutely the same hahaha and the kiss-me candy especially the rose-milk flavour. I miss the little elements that used to keep me so happy!

Relationship Significant Others
@Amy
VPoints 2189
Supporters 88
Vent 136
Calm
6 days ago
Why does sexual desire ruin the basic block of a relationship?

Apparently my friend has been talking to this guy on Instagr*m. They go to nearby colleges, have mutual friends but had never met each other before but well these days that's how it all starts right, the "story reply", the usual flirting and yeah it was pretty obvious that they like each other.

However, the guy after two months started opening up about his sexual desires which I respect obviously every individual has their own needs but the fact that brown girls are supposed to have certain boundaries are quite out in the open no? We do want to explore the sexual realms and blah blah but like we could literally be disowned by our families and people are not open about that guys! Instead of understanding that, well I'm not going to blame the guy, he has his desires and since the bond could not give him that he decided to leave like okay! But it just put me in a dilemma, if that is prioritized more than the bond itself? Or if it is wrong? Or if it is mostly about sexual things? I mean I would genuinely like your opinions on this.

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Relationship Friends
@Amy
VPoints 2189
Supporters 88
Vent 136
Calm
6 days ago
Talking to someone special and losing the track of time is such a beautiful feeling.

Isn't time holding us back from doing what we want, and being ourselves? Well wait, we don't even know who we are so not being ourselves but trying to explore ourselves? It's all the function of time, we have predefined plans and schedules and even if not the fact that we are supposed to cherish every moment seems like a bu*den and a waste of time since we are in this unknown race!

However the fact that you meet someone, talk to them, even though the context would be lame as hell, so stupid and nonsensical but the moment then and there would make so much sense! I have a best friend and she is literally love. Everyone thought we were dating and like exploring our sexuality lol and now that I think of it idk maybe! Well, I have never been as possessive as I was about her with anyone else in my entire life. We fought didn't talk for years and still event during those crazy times no one even had ton ask but we were still each other's . Due to certain events, we rarely meet, never call, and text once in three months.

Yesterday was one of those days, it was10pm and then boom 5am! And such silly absolutely silly talks! It felt like bliss to have someone so close to you when you're far apart and just being some dumbasses for the entire time!

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Entertainment Others
@Amy
VPoints 2189
Supporters 88
Vent 136
Calm
7 days ago
Some songs have been hitting the trend zone through tik-tok videos!

I have across numerous songs during this lockdown , well we all got nothing to do and internet comes to our rescue and Instagr*m is one of my favorite apps through which the reels and tik-tok videos have contributed quite a lot to load my existing playlist. The songs would have originally been considered ordinary but through repeated context on the same songs, even people who don't listen to English music are starting to pay attention.

Some of my personal favorite songs are BOOM BOOm by venga boys (lyrics as boom boom boom boom I want you in my room, we could spend the night together), then chicken wings by ricky desktop has an amazing beat, electric love by born, What's popping? Don't mind me just watching. All these songs whenever they play I remember all these memes and various artists and it is really enjoyable. In fact spotify has special songs for the tik-tok category as well for easy filtration. You just never know when your creation hits the trend!

Daily Drag
@Amy
VPoints 2189
Supporters 88
Vent 136
Calm
a week ago
No matter how much we focus on direct communication, sometimes indirect might help as well

I'm quite a straightforward person and hope the same from others as well (not expect because its too much of a disappointment). I would really appreciate people to come up to me and tell me if I hurt them or I did something that they didn't like instead of assuming it making it a huge issue in their own head and ruining the bond. Of course i would feel bad and I might even cry and we might even fight but i always believe in discussing and letting it go!

However some people have this inexpressiveness in themselves and I respect that I mean their lives I can't expect the same from everyone right? However, sometimes we must an*lyze people's behavior and act accordingly. They might say "I'm fine" but we can always find them sulking around and trying to detach, Of course that is exhausting but maybe sometimes people go through a hard time and all we must try to do is make an attempt to get to know them better. They might post certain songs or memes or say something, just try to watch their behavior and correct yourself!

Current Affairs
@Amy
VPoints 2189
Supporters 88
Vent 136
WTH
a week ago
I hate how my GK is so weak that I shut up purposely during trivia

Honestly, I have always wanted to be good at current affairs however I have always turned out to be one of the most insecure person! Initially I thought I might be fine, I could remember certain states and their capitals and like okay maybe I can do this, but I'm just really bad at memorizing names, dates and events. I think its just sad how people roast me and people like me for not being able to answer and they keep mocking at us with their questions.

Some people follow foreign trends and know what stupid error Donald Trump committed during the speech and know nothing about their own countries. Some however have deep intense knowledge about their own nation but fail to recognize the other famous personalities and regardless of which section you belong to you are always judged. I'm always insecure when people ask me even if I know certain things and I don't and I'm really getting affected by all of their judgements.

Entertainment Others
@Amy
VPoints 2189
Supporters 88
Vent 136
WTH
a week ago
Siddharth Shukla is one of the most bull-headed person and idk if its just for the show!

I have been a huge big-boss fan ever since that "sambhavna-rahul-shweta" that season rolled in, my family and I have never missed any season even when I had boards. Well not die hard protesting fans who abuse everyone who are against the show but just dr*ma loving people who laugh at the stupidity. However from the past two years, I have been at hostel and had no access to television. This pandemic anyways gave me a chance to watch it again and jes*s ch*is* do i thank god for not letting me watch the last season as Siddharth was the winner!

Siddharth, Hina and Guahar are currently the seniors ruling their superpowers cool. Gauhar is considerate, Hina is strategic, Siddharth is well I have no words. First of all, he doesn't say to make a point, he says whatever he does for merely footage. All he knows is how to make people fight of course that's what they are there for, but there's a way no? He hits at people's insecurities and I think its just too shallow for him. He follows nepotism to such a great extent and supports wrongfully conducted actions just for the sake of elevated spice. He manipulates the other girls as in the last elimination both of them were against Sara being eliminated and he was stuck up on the fact without a strong reason. All he does is say bla bla bla bla and it is so irritating to watch him.

I don't know how people made him win the show like seriously he is just too annoying!

Entertainment Movies
@Amy
VPoints 2189
Supporters 88
Vent 136
WTH
a week ago
Rap music and most Item songs have become such objectional phrases!

I remember when rap songs used to be the solace of every broken heart, fast painful words that explicitly portray all the bottled up frustrations of everyone who is going through a hard time and Item songs idolized women as a sense of powerful seduction with so much respect and pure energy! What has happened to the music industry?

Now these days, all raps songs are about drug, sex and all the materialistic things that don't matter and people just don't feel it relatable! WAP song everyone knows right? I love the beat, the vibe, the music but all the songs are sexual and just what happened to the inspirational section? And item songs have objectified women, they are compared with food items, liquors, drugs like seriously bruh grow up? We are not a supermarket but real human!

There's a reason why people feel more comfortable with old songs and it is not just the memories but the vibe those lyrics and melodies possess!

Daily Drag
@Amy
VPoints 2189
Supporters 88
Vent 136
Disgusted
a week ago
Technology has stolen the conventional essence of one's childhood.

The reminiscence of childhood is flooded with numerous embarrassing instances right? Those days were indeed a paradise. An era when children used to wake up to the sound of the melodious chirping of birds and savour the sunrise with their beaming eyes. Each day they would explore their curiosity in random conquests. Even the ordinary things like climbing on a chair or making a mud castle when its wet or even splashing their hands in the running water due to rains would give them extreme pleasure. Hasn’t technology stolen the purest form of self-creativity?

Cartoons are the most exquisite tool to enhance the imagination of kids and be a vibrant part of their childhood memories. However, addiction to them in such a tender age? Some kids deny to eat in the absence of it and helpless parents give in to their desires. Children have adapted to violent video games hindering the positive growth of their brain. How long has it been since we saw the gangs of little bicycle riders? The girls who used to dress up little plastic dolls are posing in front of the snapchat filters. The boy scouts drowning in muddy games and girls with their kitchen toy sets are lost. Are the memories going to be enveloped in the cli*ks and touch of these de*ices?

Technology has undoubtedly stolen away the essence of an innocent childhood. Let’s all hope to unleash the horror and revert back to the priceless golden days.

Confession
@Amy
VPoints 2189
Supporters 88
Vent 136
Frustrated
a week ago
This how a depressed soul with a fake smile sounds like!

I don't know which lantern should i trust
The golden seems just well the world is not to trust
The orangish however has this innocence round its aura
Maybe its a doomed end,
So much better than the known
My heart screams in frustration
I Know exactly who i want to bu*n
Its myself
from flesh to bones
cz i no longer desire to live.
It's hard endearing to something that chiselled your heart plum by plum
And yet i surrender, for the sake of a good night's sleep.
What good does the sleep do, when i get nightmares while I'm awake
when its indeed the darkness in my blindedness that gives a better pill.
Is this how it's supposed to be?

Daily Drag
@Amy
VPoints 2189
Supporters 88
Vent 136
Calm
a week ago
Polaroids are such beautiful innovations I wish i could have one right now

I have wanted a polaroid ever since I was a kid but well nobody took that seriously not even me as when we are kids we want everything haha the human greed if nothing but elevates further as we grow. As growing up all of it faded away and then suddenly I watched few movies and that one tiny scene that used a polaroid as their prop and all of the nostalgia came rushing through again!

It is such an amazing innovation right? Time stops for none but we created something to freeze the time forever! Well some people might say you got cameras and hard disks and yada yada with better reliance and security yes maybe and you i understand your opinion as it might get tedious to preserve the photos and it can get lost. But for me, Polaroids have a special meaning, and I just can't understand how to make y'all understand. Just preserving the best moments, holding them in our hands and looking back in time!

Let's take a polaroid and make it last!

Daily Drag
@Amy
VPoints 2189
Supporters 88
Vent 136
Frustrated
a week ago
We are all living in a cage without even realising it.

We are given Thousands of days to explore life. Have you ever wondered what all could have happened in this span? How many new people we could meet or new places we could have visited? Every day could be a new beginning and every night the satisfaction of diving into something new could revitalize us? And this is how we choose to live? The same old routine? Parental and societal restrictions, opting for an adult life when we are teenagers and supposed to make the most reckless decisions of our life? Is that all life is about now? Technical advancements has risen so high, people have become so dependent on employment for their survival, we are all racing against each other to show off who's better when we could have raced in a million races with a million faces! But this has just become kind of impossible to alter!

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Daily Drag
@Amy
VPoints 2189
Supporters 88
Vent 136
Calm
2 weeks ago
At the end we all need someone to rescue us!

I know most people say how you are your own savior, but think about it, nothing happens just like that. Well yeah you don't have to be completely dependent on some particular person for whatever your desires are but you can't ride completely solo. There comes a time when you are deliberately put in a situation where through the crowd, or through a single smile or maybe a broken string, you find your purpose. It is not just you, it is the universe, the wh*le living and non-living existence that comes into play to decide who you are! We need someone to rescue us, we need someone to ignite the initiation, the rest is in our palms which path we would take! You can however not succeed solo!

Entertainment Movies
@Amy
VPoints 2189
Supporters 88
Vent 136
Calm
2 weeks ago
Horror movies are an art and people must stop criticizing them!

Most of the people don't tend to watch horror movies as they find it too predictable like someone dies and they haunt the house and whoever who resides in it or avenge upon the ones who killed them and same right? And yeah it gets exhausting how rich families who already know the house is haunted agree to it and same dr*ma continues. While some of them are scared of it period! The costume, the eeriness and the wh*le vibe gets too spooky!

And then there are people like me who absolutely love horror movies. Yes, I'm not going to be unreasonable and fight all the opponents with "No! The scripts are different" while I clearly understand that a lot of it are more or less quite similar however for me, there's an inexplicable feeling every time I watch it. I know how when everything is silent, there's soon going to be a booming sound to shock and yet knowing the unknown haha i hide my face in blanket. The loud voices make me hover at night a lot but I still can't get enough of them.

All these things make me wonder if the supernatural entities are real or not! What if they are and not just myths. What if they are just all hidden or maybe within us in a disguise and laughing at us for considering it a joke? The enticing make-up and cinematography with sound effects are indeed a piece of art!

Daily Drag
@Amy
VPoints 2189
Supporters 88
Vent 136
Calm
2 weeks ago
I read books and it takes me to another world and it's a new dream through every page!

People often think reading books is nerdy, believe me it's not! Reading is an art, an emotion. Some people might not have that much patience to read across words, gradually feeling the intensity of every emotion that has been expressed through the double quotes, the exclamation mark, the full-stop, their intensity is next level! Imagination is the key to be in that state of euphoria!

Reading is about patience. I have met a numerous people in my life who read for the sake of the "i-read-reputation" and it is so noticeable like if you're reading this and you're one of those people, dude don't do it you come off as even more fake. If you don't feel it just don't pretend to be someone else! It's not a contest but just something that ignites a sense of wonder and creativity.

We don't read words, we imagine ourselves in that story, we become the spectator! Every time the protagonist makes a stupid decision, we scream at a fictional camera as if I'm being recorded as well. We an*lyze their characters, its so much anxiety unlike movies where you can know what happens in the next minutes, we have to go through 100 of pages to feel that pain, that anxiety what made the villain so evil, that intensity can never be screened on a matinee!

Reading is imagining, feeling that fast paced heartbeat, imagining castles and forests and the wild thrilling things expressed by someone else and making it our own version!

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Daily Drag
@Amy
VPoints 2189
Supporters 88
Vent 136
Calm
2 weeks ago
It's hard prioritizing your self respect when you're smitten with obsession!

I don't understand why the field of obsession has not been given much value in the psychological field. I mean maybe it is I'm not cursing at the field of study just on the lack of awareness amidst the general crowd is too low and that is what leading to heartbreaking expectations, anxiety, depression etc. ! The thing that i have observed is how obsession mostly comes up with the things that you yourself lack and then you find a person or a thing that possesses that same quality and yup you are smitten!

The worst part of obsession is how we ignore all the red flags and just give that situation or person the benefit of the doubt and end up destructing ourselves. We just want to attain that obsession and we genuinely don't care what we do, you know why? It's cause we are not even aware about what we are doing We become so lost in it that everything loses its purpose! It is so dangerous as it makes us have this inbuild set of predefined hopes and expectations which our subconscious mind realizes is a false dream and yet we tend to ignore it!

The worst part is how we lose our self respect again and again, tell ourselves how it would be the last time and dive into the viscous cycle again! If someone did not text you back, understand they are either busy, when they would contact you back! And if they don't, you must understand your place in their lives and leave them alone! Yeah we end up thinking they must have a reason bla bla and if they do, well they must discuss it! Just know when you are being treated as an option not a choice.

Daily Drag
@Amy
VPoints 2189
Supporters 88
Vent 136
Disgusted
2 weeks ago
I can't stand loud and rude people who scream to prove their point!

I'm a person with rational choices and yes of course I'm wrong a lot of times, I accept that, I might not take that criticism and not agree with their opinions, but I would have this in my head that every individual has their own sense of understanding. However, I have met certain people, who are so narcissistic and self-obsessed that they don't even listen to what others say!

I cannot stand people who scream to prove their point! What are we supposed to do? Scream higher? Is it a contest! When things fall out you address the problem and discuss the goddamn solution right?? They scream to prove their point, you scream to prove yours and all there is left is the intensity of who screams higher and the wh*le point fades away! Especially the people who scream, say "I'm like this accept or leave" and after their screaming episode just leave themselves instead of resolving the issue!

What is wrong with these people seriously? No one's going to mend you statements true through that shrill pitch if that's what anyone thinks. You just end up proving how dumb you are to not being able to understand a basic human conversation!

Daily Drag
@Amy
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Vent 136
Calm
2 weeks ago
Regrets would only leave an incomplete void so take chances!

The worst thing that can happen to you is not getting answers; especially the answers that you had the authority to find out! Human souls is beyond curious and vague answers only compel us to push furthermore into the graveyard of truth!

What about those risk taking moments huh? You hate change probably or you might be scared of the failure and rejection! You know all these matinees on how a person balances himself on a broken string on impulse and that turns out to be the chance he ever needed and all his wishes come true! And there you wonder, why no one ever shows what happened to the guy who didn't take a chance and let an ordinary life, well they must! It will only make people realize, that not taking chances would not be depressing, but is our motto not being depressed or being happy? It's up to you, choose survival or a thrilling unknown journey which is scary as hell and yeah you might even hit the rock bottom, but what good would an already planned predictable life would do?

You take a chance, it works out amazingly, BINGO! You take a chance, you fail outrageously! You curse yourself for being stupid and after years you get stable as that's always the output, sooner or later things get okay!! This time you laugh at the chance and think of the adrenaline rush it gave you, BINGO! You don't take a chance, life turns out okayish or maybe even awesome, but you will ALWAYS think about what would have happened IF!! and that "what if" would haunt you for the rest of your life!

Life is too short! Just do it (well I hope whatever you plan to do is rational and socially good I don't encourage toxicity lol)!!

Daily Drag
@Amy
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Vent 136
WTH
2 weeks ago
Sad how individual sexuality is still treated as "You are not straight!??"

I'm straight or I'm gay or I'm bi or I am someone who doesn't know what category or what scale of these terms I fit into because these are merely some distinct generalized terms, while desires and personality traits revolve around a wh*le infinite points! And its just really sad how it is not accepted yet! People would often say wow she came out about it (she being someone they don't even know personally) and when someone in their vicinity does the same, they blame how he/she was brought up!

First of all, what is the need to come out? Right now, if I have a kid someday he/she comes home with another he/she/someone else even and says they're in love, I'd be like so cool! Of course societal pressure would make me suffer, but I want to stand firm so no future generation has to go through this bullshit! They are being stared at, not being "OMG THEY'RE DIFFERENT SO BOLD" but "Umm They're different well lets not look, umm is it awkward to stare at the gay couple? Umm how do they you know what nvm none of our business!!" and that's what bothers me! What is so awkward about it! Just because majority of movies depicts a guy and a girl and their made up dr*mas, doesn't mean its fixed!! WELL AS IF THE GUY AND GIRL ARE ALLOWED TO LIVE HAPPILY! But that's another topic.

I'm just saying, normalize freedom please!

Relationship Significant Others
@Amy
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Calm
2 weeks ago
People need to stop blaming others for unrequited love!

We have all been in love, or well if tat exists! else we have all been in that weird space where we felt anxious of our actions, stupid nervousness if we made a fool out of ourselves in front of that someone, or the fast paced heartbeat or you know the usual ignoring of red flags and what's common is how we are the only person feeling that while the special someone most of the times doesn't even know we exist.

It is normal you know? You didn't force yourself to have that feeling did you? It just induced in you somehow right? And since you can't control your feelings how do you expect others to? It's normal for people to not love us back. I find people saying "why can't you love him? He's sweet and respectable and he loves you like anything, you will regret it", I mean, its not up to me now is it? What am i supposed to do? Do some voo-doo and black magic so I fall in love with the right guy? If I could mend my heart I would but you have to stop blaming others. They must understand you love them and would do anything but just maybe for them it doesn't cli*k and it's okay! Every person has their own individuality and you have to let them have their space!

Entertainment Others
@Amy
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Disgusted
2 weeks ago
What is so wrong with watching and loving big boss!!??

I'm appalled at the fact how big boss audience are treated as dumb Like no an*lysis nothing just claiming them as dumb? They often ask "you do know its scripted right?", well first of all do you have a proof that it is? How some of them protest when certain IPL matches are PROVED to be fixed! Suddenly proof hits all their egos and when it comes to reality show, Then they're like "It's obvious look at them" like without any evident entity just like that? Have you ever been in a house with strangers for so many months? Do you understand the emotional imbalance it can create? Just coming away and judging ew!

I'm not arguing big boss is not scripted! I don't know about that maybe maybe not! I have a problem with how audience are being called dumb for watching some reality dr*ma. Even if its scripted what's wrong with watching it? We watch scripted Netflix all the time right? So seriously stop calling names and making memes, there's obviously a reason why the TRP's are so high! If you don't like it, don't watch it as simple as that, what's the point of influencing other people's sense of freedom?

Confession
@Amy
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Calm
2 weeks ago
I'm envious of people who speak up their mind!

I'm a very sensitive and anxious person and I would overthink literally everything, even the tiniest of things that some people say or do unintentionally and feel extremely sad how I was treated even when I know it was unintentional and I know that's something that I need to get over. However I can't even express what's on my mind!

I'm extremely envious of people who speak up their mind. Well, I'm not talking about those people who act rude with this bossy attitude looking down upon everyone acting superior when all they are being is mean! Those people, however who have the confidence to put up their initiatives or their point of view out in the open and they don't care if they're being judged but they realize the rationality of their subject and that is something that always hits my admiration level.

A friend of mine told me how beautiful she thinks she looks in a particular dress, I mean that's a small thing apparently, however, how many of us actually speak it out? Sometimes we feel beautiful and cute but we always hide it out like "Oh no its just a dress", why can't we embrace it? If someone is being rude, instead of correcting that person and letting him know he must not talk that way, I tend to calm the person he hurt, as I don't want to hurt the rude person's feelings as well maybe he had a reason. But at the end of the day, no reason could justify a bad treatment and I think myself giving this benefit of the doubt to everyone has started to become my weakness!

Relationship Myself
@Amy
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Calm
2 weeks ago
Want to know My Journey as a Girl!?

Me as a girl

I am a girl who was born under the canopy of restrictions; debarred from the world I deserved. They consider me weak because i bleed! They consider me a sin when I raise my voice! I am a girl who has hit rock-bottom of pain and prejudice, slithering all the way, embracing my scars. I don't possess the stereotype beauty! I don’t want to be an overrated cliché! " ME AS A GIRL" is somewhat a blend of ablaze dreams and passion! They say I'm destined to be doomed. Well I'm a believer! I believe myself to be the epitome of change!
Me as a girl is an ocean of pain turned into pearls!

Confession
@Amy
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Vent 136
Disgusted
2 weeks ago
Unintentional bullying is worse!!

You’ll never know the pain someone hides behind their smile or even bullying, the someone can be a part of your family and the clear red flag would just drift right through your eyes and you won’t notice. Why do people have to be so judgmental. Why do people have to slut-shame to keep the conversation going? Is there absolutely nothing real left in this world for us to explore anymore? Why do we enjoy bullying so much? Sculpturing the name of non-offensive joke wouldn’t really be helpful. Why can’t we just be good people. Everyone has committed satanic crimes that they all are ashamed of why do we still fr*me each other? Why can’t we all just bloody move on??

Daily Drag
@Amy
VPoints 2189
Supporters 88
Vent 136
Disgusted
2 weeks ago
Being open is misjudged probably because no one is used to being free!

No matter how much we boast off and involve in debates on democracy and secularism, we just can't deny the fact that nobody in this nation feels free! Nobody says what they want to or does what they want to mostly because of how society expects us to behave is totally different from what we desire and it is absolutely gloomy and when finally when we find someone being bold and doing whatever they feel like without bothering about anyone else, we call them "rude, mean, characterless etc."

Isn't it sad though? When a boy comes up to a girl expressing how he admires her body, and the girls are supposed to take it in a sexually-vulgar and offensive way? Why can't we ever think good about ourselves, maybe we actually were looking good? Probably because majority of cases have proven out to be horrendous however isn't it us ruling out some good possibilities because of the occurred bad ones? When a girl talks about her sex life, or periods or some funny dark humor, she is supposed to be seeking for attention and call names! Why? just because she chose to exclaim what was in her head.

We need to change all our perspectives before protesting "You are beautiful in your own way and be you!" because no one is themselves and its because we don't allow them to be! Some people's opinion might contradict with yours so what? Why would you get aggressive and bully the hell out of them? Why can't you simple understand their life was different, their experiences were different and based on that they had a different belief! Just start accepting the diversity through individuality!

Daily Drag
@Amy
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Vent 136
Disgusted
2 weeks ago
Do you know Organ Donations are considered unholy in some family beliefs?

Apparently I was watching this movie "Never Let go", typical slow movie with plot as three kids in a place which initially seems like boarding schools but it is soon revealed that they must donate their organs to carriers when they grow up after a certain age and all my cousins were with me. All of a sudden my aunts came and made outrageous faces. They said as I quote "Donating organs is a sin. You must never give someone else what belongs to you" (obviously in my native language though), but I think it is so shallow!

Then the topic got hit and we all had to discuss about how our families react on it. So spoiler alert, our families just pretend to be progressive yay! (Total sarcasm intended). So it is the common opinion that organs must not be donated and that the carrier is not himself but he carries the soul of the person who died and the latter's soul would never attain salvation.

First of all, we talk about love and peace and faith, to be able to save someone else's life, isn't that all the more reason to attain that bliss if it exists? Secondly, the carrier not being himself, how is that a bad thing? He has the organ of a selfless person who had the conscience to offer a part of himself to someone needy, that is incredible!

Technological advancements have risen so high and made so many unimaginable things possible and brown families still don't trust them. "What if the syringe is not cleaned and the former guy had harmful transmitting disease? What if the organ failure occurs?" What if what if what if!! Well what if all this selfishness chokes you and you die??!! Lol I'm sorry but seriously, we have to be kind, we need to be selfless else the world would engulf in hatred, it already has started, now its upto us, individually to save it!

Relationship Family
@Amy
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Vent 136
Calm
2 weeks ago
Parents are to be blamed or sympathized with when it comes to life? We'll never know!

This is something I write for all the middle-class borne families, teenagers, adults, parents or whoever. Have you all thought about it too? How zoned-out you feel when in movies people talk about "follow your passion" or "Listen to your heart" or things like that which make us feel that adrenaline rush only to hit down by the reality? We often get all our hopes high don't we?

It's just we all want to explore the meaning of life and not succ*mb to the every day 9-5 hours. And by exploring I don't mean getting high in some bar, or like maybe that too (ONLY SOMETIMES) along with travelling to new places, become a writer, helping strangers just all those little things. However, we just can't! It's not like we don't have the passion or courage to do that. You ask any one of those frustrated wanna-be-dora-the-explorer person out there, he would leave every materialistic he owns to just once try what he is actually passionate about, but its the emotional bonding that holds us back!

Our parents must have had some dreams, or maybe they didn't which is even sad that they weren't even exposed to an environment where they could find something worthy enough to be passionate about. All their lives they struggled for it, to make us successful and we all know they do want us to struggle hard as they did right? But this trade-off between struggle and happiness bashes in. To not struggle, we follow that same drab routine, engineering, medicine bla bla and when we want to leave everything, we can't as their crying faces are we can see it's like we are a huge disappointment, even if the parents are kind enough not to say it, every middle class person feels it!

We whine how parents don't understand us and scream "I DON'T WANT TO LIVE THIS KIND OF LIFE", but think about it, have you planned out what kind of life you want to live? Do you have a plan? or a resource? or anything stable? Unless you do, there's no point in screaming at them as you can't expect them to support you for a to-be-failed-clause because of the financial crisis.

This is the major difference between a high class life and a middle class one, the struggle is real!

Confession
@Amy
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Vent 136
Calm
3 weeks ago
In my darkest days, I often wondered who ruined my life, and this is a metaphorical representation of it!

“Please! Please! Let me go! Who are you people?”
A herd of ferocious creatures dragged Annika along the coarse edges of the ground. The golden feather-like leaves turned to ripping blades piercing through her delicate legs, sketching scars all over her subtle flesh. Her hands streaked the marks of the ropes that imprisoned her; her head was off the pitch with concussion. Gasping for breath, she tried to make out what doomed palace she was in, but all of her efforts proved fatal. Miles afar, all that seemed to exist was an uproarious blanket of silence and a shield of menacing darkness.
Somehow catching some breath, she managed to catch a glare of the crowd that carried her tied up exhausted body as though she wasn’t even alive. They were normal people; men, women, the young and the old. However, what made their ordinary existence a little extraordinary was how all of them were dressed as if they were a part of some kind of a traditional cult; the women wore a saffron chiffon, a lace so fragile and transparent that one could see right through their enticing beauty while the men had an aghori-like outlook, three wide white lines smeared on their head as if representing the symbol of their cult. Amidst the woods, Annika was nothing but a slave of her patience.
“Put her behind the bars and whoever tries to show mercy or set her free will be hanged.”, the voices echoed in Annika’s head as her vision was obliterated. The sound was indeed of a young girl, a naïve who did not even understand the depth of life yet probably. Why would a young girl try to hurt her? To decode her assumption, she tried to look through somehow and all she could get was a glance of the girl’s smooth wavy black hair.
Soon she was thrashed like a useless baggage of trash into a cage built with perfectly carved and flourished bamboos as if it was the work of a skilled man. She screamed frequently in a hope for mercy, however her fate seemed to have lost its course. It was near midnight and she was famished when she heard a mild whispering,
“I could give you some fresh apples if you would like”, uttered an old woman of about sixty years of age. The strands of her hair were all grey with little streaks of a golden shade, her eyes so tiny as if most of it was embedded deep into the skull. Her voice however outshined the delicate appearance as even the whispering seemed to be heavy.
“Please! Why am I here? Who are you people? You can have whatever you want just let me go”, Annika expressed with utmost sorrow.
“sh...! Be quiet child. If the queen hears us, I will be damned”
“Queen? Who is your queen?”
“She is the goddess of your life and death!”, smirked the old woman as though hiding a series of mysteries.
“Please, let me go. I will offer your queen with all the precious jewels just please I can’t stay here.”
“What our queen wants is to enslave you! Now do not make a fuss or I will snatch the only mercy I could offer you in spite of putting my own life in danger. You should be grateful to me you spoilt child.”
Annika rested her eyes on those luscious red apples wondering if they were poisoned. Since she was no longer hopeful, concluding that death by poison would be better than a lifetime of enslavement, she blinked her eyes in affirmation. As soon she got the bite of those delicious treat, she was delighted for never in her life had she ever tasted apples so savoury and sweet. However, as her hunger calmed down, there was absolutely nothing else left to distract her from the anxiety and fear.
Under the canopy of bamboo bars and a surrounding encasing nothing but woods, even the stars seemed to scare her. She crawled into a corner and pondered over her life before all this; how perfect her life could have been if she had not recklessly complicated it. She thought of all the good things she might never get again; the giggles of her loved ones, the satisfaction of being free, a crystal clear sky without any bars. She regretted not her passions and desires when she had the chance to. It was when she began to drown in the fear of fading into the oblivion, when she spot a shadow against the moonlight. She knew, it was the girl.
“Why have you kept me here like a prisoner? I deserve to know”, stuttered Annika as her voice broke down after crying her heart out.
A wrinkled paper, crushed vigorously was passed to her through the bars with some words written on it: “YOU MADE ME EVIL THEREFORE I WILL CONTROL YOUR LIFE. YOU WILL SOON KNOW WHO I AM.”
“What? That’s absurd! I don’t even know you.”
The girl reclined and in the tinge of the light Annika was quick enough to observe a dark spot on one of her forearms. The shadow disappeared. Annika wasn’t even sure if the girl had heard her voice. She was convinced that was the queen but why would a young girl want to destroy her life was a mystery she could not yet understand.
In those totally helpless hours, the memories of her happy days flooded back to her; how perfect her little compact life was and how recklessly she let those moments fleet away. She craved for the warmth of her loved ones, the red hot flame of her passion, the laughter and giggles that would make her tummy pain out of joy. All those ordinary instances seemed like a paradise of eternity. If only she could relive her life again!
The reminiscence of the good old days infused a sudden rage in her veins. She decided whoever the queen was, did not deserve to claim her life. Her eyes rummaged for a weapon or tool or any possible object that could help her escape and there, few inches off the cage she found a chiselled rock had come to her rescue. She, laid on her knees, bent as much as she could, stretched her arms out of the bars with all her might and caught hold of the weapon. Cautious of not making any conspicuous noise, she started to rip off the bamboo bars with the rock. She could hear her heart pounding, pearls of sweat trickled down her spine, the fear tried to paralyze her soul however the fury of hope; hope for a second chance at life triggered all of her bottled up aggression. Within few minutes, she was free!
A blend of anxiety and faith surged through her blood. She ran like it was the last race of her life; a race of freedom and slavery. The chivalry of nature transformed to her most horrific nightmare, the huge trees looked like a shape shifting monster, the playful movements of adorable animals were heard as the footsteps of the de*il, the glossing moonlight put her in the spotlight for the ultimate destruction, but she didn’t look back and “thud!” her legs crackled against a hidden rock and her head hit the ground.
She tried to open her eyes but the sudden flash of lights blinded her. After gradually trying, she got a track of her senses only to find her in her own room huddled up in a cozy blanket. She took a look at her hands; there were no carvings of the tied rope, no scratches on her flesh. She thought why she would have such an absurd dream and who would actually want to entrap her. She rolled her eyes, stretched her frazzled body and gave a stupefying glance at her distorted mirror; those black wavy strands of hair, a dark patch on the forearm; there she had found the queen! The queen who held her as a slave! The goddess of her life and death!

Relationship Significant Others
@Amy
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Vent 136
Calm
3 weeks ago
High School crushes hit a different romantic vibe. This is something that I hope every one-sided admirer would relate to.

Walking by your street at moonlight
The night screams at me to look at your window pane
They don’t know what it feels like
To be so close to you when you don’t even know my name
And I think if we’ll ever get past through this phase
Cz I know all you are
All you know is my face
But we could get it right though
All I need to do is take this stupid chance
But hey, I’m scared
Every time I see you I hide myself behind the walls
And hey, It’s not love
Cz I don’t wanna sugar coat something we could find together.

Entertainment Others
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Calm
3 weeks ago
We are all hypocrites when it comes to fashion!

It’s funny how trends make us go back on our claimed words isn’t it? Well the first time my family and I saw someone with a ripped jeans fashion, we all gave each other this “Are you serious!?” look and laughed so much about it (not making fun of someone else’s choices duh I respect whatever others want to do but we all imagined ourselves in that costume and found it hilarious), and here I am right now surfing through internet to find another pair of that same costume! Hypocrisy? Well in my defence I would say people change, choices change, but yeah the truth is well shallow!

There was a strict pattern followed in the traditions, the girls would wear these long skirts and a small top to aesthetically define the contrast and now they wear formal shirts with Ghaghara and wide baggy trousers with a traditional crop top? Fashion styling has bu*st through the highest clouds and has undergone an unimaginable change. What amazes me is how intensely it is responsible to remove the gender inequality I mean Ranvir Singh’s costumes are a typical example for that. Well some people could make fun of someone being so bold about the choices, but it’s just because they can’t afford to be that fearless!

I say let’s just stop being so judgemental as you never know you might fall in love with the same thing you’re criticising right now!

Confession
@Amy
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Vent 136
Calm
3 weeks ago
Have you ever been so depressed and empty that you started enjoying that state?

Maybe my usage of the word "depression" is not needed as I don't really know what that is. As much as I have an*lyzed the public outbu*st, it is way too dark and struggling so maybe I's rather say distressed I guess. But I often tend to have one of these phases where I just get drained of all my energy and enthusiasm. Usually, I'm hopeful, yes I whine and complaint a lot, but its just to let it all out, I believe in the goodness of things, I have faith in life and I hope everything would get better, but these mentioned phases are a disaster!

I think I am practical to understand that my life is privileged as I don't have to bed for anything, YET! However this weird surge of vacancy shackles me within itself. The weird state where I lose all my thinking capabilities and I feel as if I'm being pulled by something so strong and so intense into a world of oblivion. I don't know if it makes sense but I feel so free, as if everything in this world, love, hope, faith, connections, hatred, discrimination all of it are just attributes formed by human minds and that none of that really exists. As if its all some plot that we are being the characters of and just playing our respective roles. I often feel like staying in that weird world you know? Where there are no strings attached to anything or anyone!

Daily Drag
@Amy
VPoints 2189
Supporters 88
Vent 136
WTH
3 weeks ago
Teenagers are frustrated with the treatment in schools!

The world seeks for technically and character-affirmed interns while the world sculpts cr*mmers who would know all the formula in the entire world but would still be good for nothing! Does the education system lack? One hundred percent yes!

Why is it that everyone claims one must not feel bad about losing as it is the process and the journey that would make you grow and the very next moments evaluates one's entire life journey and potential through a biased grading system? Why are we made to believe that there is something good achieved if we weren't the last but we are treated as defaulters but the toppers are in the realm of a paradise; the same toppers who would not have a hint of an idea about how to solve a practical problem in pressured situations, but Dave on the other hand who knows how to fix a computer from scratch is probably a non-existent entity in our school. This is legit unjust and something that literally compels the students against the rules.

You want to know why a teenager acts crazy and thinks nobody understands them, well now you have the answer. After a point of time, you all would become adults and say to the other teenage kids "We went through this just fine it's not that hard", you know why? its cause y'all got used to it and surrendered! We don't want to surrender, we want to be rebellious for something that really matters and are not just some bunch of excuses! We need schools to educate us on how to be a good human instead of how to form the sense of jealousy to be successful, we need education and skills not grades and buttering techniques!

Entertainment Others
@Amy
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Vent 136
Disgusted
3 weeks ago
Why K-pop and people who like K-Genre are stereotyped so much?

K-pop is a wh*le another genre which is adored by a huge population. However, there exist some people who call the wh*le genre as well as the people who follow those trends as "Gay and Shallow". First of all, gay is stereotyped! Just so people understand, loving another human being of same gender doesn't mean their favorite color is pink and even if it is, who the hell are you to judge, Mr.-More-Than-Ever Shallow?

Korean Dr*mas are mostly loved by teenagers, girls as well as boys however the stereotype has been intensified so much that I know some of my guy friends who love it but are scared to appreciate it in public for the sake of this public reputation. I mean y'all keep protesting about the government not being able to establish enough democracy, what are you all doing trying to look down on people for their genuine non discriminated choices?

What is so wrong with the K gen? Maybe it is that their dances and simultaneously are in perfect sync and so flawless or maybe how the don't often tend to pretend as macho rowdies but instead act romantically and physically cute as most girls desire? I hope people change these outrageous thinking of marginalizing aspects that they know nothing about!

Daily Drag
@Amy
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Supporters 88
Vent 136
Calm
3 weeks ago
Dance is not about right or wrong, its just a beautiful way of expression!

There are people wo are scared to dance, not only publicly but even in their personal space, one of who is my friend. I asked her why not, no one would judge her if that is what she was worried about and what she told me was she was afraid she would look in the mirror and realize that she is nothing but a failure. I felt so touched by that, in a very weak way! Why would someone judge themselves so much to not try something new?

I was fortunate enough to be someone who she could confide in and I told her how dance is not about thinking but feeling. Now if you are thinking I'm an amazing dancer? Nope, i suck at memorizing steps and agility? ZERO! But I never want to be a dancer in the first place, all i want to do is embrace this form of art that has the ability to just extract out all my sufferings. She and I together we just randomly started playing some disco beats and swinging our bodies. I'm pretty sure if a professional dancer saw us, he/she would definitely think of that as a zombie-dance! The best part was in that moment of our hair flipping and hands flying, we didn't care about anything anymore! It was one of the best feelings to see someone let go of their fears!

Dance is an aesthetic sense of feeling! If you can tap in and match all the steps with total smoothness, great! If you can't, that must not stop you from enjoying yourself. Go to a crowded place, watch all people regardless of any boundations come together and just acting crazy! That is what you need to be, free and crazy!

Entertainment Movies
@Amy
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Vent 136
Calm
3 weeks ago
Why do movie sequels fail to justify the previous versions?

The paradise of cinema has been intriguing and entertaining the wh*le world through the charismatic characters and script lines however the sequels often fail to empower the initial hustle-bustle. Even if we consider the animation sequels, if I consider ICE AGE, i believer the first three parts were an absolute please to the heart and soul however the next ones failed all the expectations. I think Toy Story and Hera Pheri somehow managed to maintain its essence however if we talk about double dhamaal or houseful 3-4, absolute disaster!

I often wonder why this happens? Most of the movies are not even directed keeping in mind the concept of a sequel but their unexpected hike in the box office collection makes the team so excited that they decide to come up with a sequence. The public gets even more enthusiastic and assume and raise their expectations even more. Both the enthusiasm often don't tend to match! Also, it must be so hard for the script writers to come up with a different script as the film-era has produced millions of stories and to plot something as different to what can make people nail-bite while also sticking to the initial movie is excruciating!

I hope people stop criticizing the team for a movie that didn't match their expectations instead realize how much effort it took them for I believe luck plays a major part in the overall flow. Feel free to share your opinion!

Confession
@Amy
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Frustrated
3 weeks ago
I'm so frustrated at my indecisiveness and procrastination habits!

The lockdown has made us realize one thing, I don't know about y'all but I have realized that it was never about "I'm too busy" but always about "I'm too lazy" and I have no idea how the past decade I manipulated my mind into believing that if I had an environment to do something productive I would have already done it! I don't know guys, if 7 months of good internet-availability, free-time, numerous life-changing tutorials were not enough, then I'm just a huge loser!

I have procrastinated everything every time! I try hard, I keep alarms and set so many reminders, and every time it rings, I swipe right and close it! Its not like I want to I really do regret every time I keep the hinges open but I think maybe its the lack of habit, or maybe I think about how normal life will be back soon and my wh*le routine would be disturbed so lets just not waste my time on something that might never work out. As you see, these are all excuses and I just don't know how to get all my work done!

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3 weeks ago
Boys with make up look gorgeous! Imagine a boy version of euphoria!

I absolutely hate how even make-up has been mostly stereotyped as a girly-material. If someone has watched EUPHORIA and the characters "Jules and rue" with all those glitter eye make-ups, seriously imagine that on boys! To all the people who are thinking "eww! gay"; grow up seriously! Make-up is such a beautiful source of vision transformation and is literally an art and must be savored by EVERYONE!

I'm a girl and I absolutely suck at make-up. Idk what a mascara lol don't judge me I can however put on eye-liner (not good but still). To watch all these characters in movies, also Harley Quinn, suicide squad right? OMG! That is when I started appreciating the efforts behind these incredible artistic skills and recently I have witnessed certain Instagr*m Reels where in boys have been putting up all those sparkling things on their eyes and phases with transition challenges, I'm speechless! It is so beautiful to see people get out of their comfort zone, embracing their individual gender and yet evolving in things what they love, disregarding people's judgement.

If you are someone who hates make-up on men, its okay! That is your opinion and its totally cool if you don't apply! But if you are one of those who never even tried to understand the beauty of it, and degrades everyone else's reputation for doing something that they love, you need to reflect on you conscience!

To all the boys who embrace what they love, lots of love and admiration to you guys!

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3 weeks ago
The game "Among Us" has got me hinged real bad!

I am not usually a "gamer" type person but yeah I always give the most trendy ones a try just to explore what is so cool about it that half of the people hooked on it. I played PUBG and temple run and the other ones for sometime and now all I see on social media is "among us" related posts and memes. I was like why not?

This game is basically where a team of 10 people play, one or two of them are imposters. The non-imposters have to do certain tasks as specified on the map while the imposters have to kill everyone. the imposters can see the task areas on the map as well and can pretend to fake task to conceal their identity. However a total-task-completed bar is above where one can monitor and an*lyze the real identities.

My glance at the UI and controls was not good as I got really confused what to do and how to do the tasks. Gradually I picked pace and played some public games in one I was an imposter, I killed someone in front of someone else and apparently if someone saw me they can report and have a meeting I was kicked out lol. But after playing so many games, I think I'm getting good at it as I manipulated all the strangers into believing yellow was an imposter while it was me hahaha. After you are killed/kicked out you can talk to other dead members however no one else would be able to see them.

The game lacks vibrant colors and graphics at first but when you keep playing it can really get into your head. The memes are super funny once you start playing the game like a team member in a blue costume was named as pink and was an imposter.. orange saw him kill someone and said pink is the imposter, while the team members voted out the one with the pink costume. As I said the game requires an*lytical and manipulative skills and is quite engaging.

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4 weeks ago
Random personality quizzes are so enticing.. fake but real interesting!!

To all the people who react EWWW to the random quizzes on the internet stating "Find out which character you are!", seriously though try them once I'm pretty sure you won't regret it. I mean obviously the human emotions and personality traits are so wide that most of the common algorithms won't be able to decipher it but its really fun and you must try it at least once.

The reason why I emphasize that it might be fake is cause there were a lot of situations when I didn't feel comfortable with the results for example "which zodiac would be your soulmate" and they asked me questions on how my family and friends would describe me and what type of first date I would love and all and gave my soulmate as GEMINI!! Gemini, Sagittarius and Leo are my three most-hated zodiac signs. Not stereotyping the wh*le community but like I haven't had goo experiences with them and so yeah the result was like whaaaat!? Also "what elite character would be your bff" and I got LU, whom I hated in the show.

Anyway I think its not about the result, its about the process. You expect something different and you get something else and then you start connecting the dots of your neural and cardiac network to those algorithms if they had even a small chance to match up. While the results are calculated, you have this name in your heart that you expect to pop up and then you realize maybe you actually might not know y=what you wanted. Just the little mind games are so intriguing!

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4 weeks ago
Communication, Apology and Forgiveness can literally sort everything out!

Human emotions hang on the verge of an outbu*st, be it an exhilarating bubble of happiness or a drowning puddle of gloom and apart from these a wh*le wide tunnel of diverse emotion levels that vary throughout our lifetime and often make us unstable for some particular instances and these are the most challenging models one has to crack.

Our sadness can neglect someone else's happiness and we might come off as whining ungrateful sadists' while the happy moods would be so empowering that we would never find anything wrong with a situation which is sometimes worse ; how we vivaciously bump in our own worlds while not considering how broken the other person is!

Communication, Apology and Forgiveness are a boon to human relationships! If someone made you feel bad, or you feel as if you unintentionally did something that might have offended someone just pour your heart out, seriously what is stopping you? The thought of "No one ever apologizes to me why should I??" or "what if they didn't even notice and I just come off as an overthinker?" are not the opinions that must stop you from being a caring person! If they didn't notice, they would appreciate your concern and if they never apologized they would make sure to do the same next time. It is only through a balanced, ego demolishing practice that we can all move forward together!

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WTH
4 weeks ago
Why do random relatives and acquaintances call and act as if we have known them since forever!

I'm not an extrovert or even an introvert. Basically my personality traits keep changes according to the people I'm with or the environment that I'm in so maybe an ambivert. The one thing I hate amidst all is "CALLS". I tend to get so awkward when someone calls me like what am i supposed to say and react and what if say something sarcastic and the other person got offended right?

The worst thing is when people call and the conversation is same and drab as always. It always begins with 'So what's new" and I be like "Nothing much" and then they are like "Yeah all boring due to lockdown no?" and then after few weird instances of awkward silence the same question with additional synonyms "What else have you been doing" hits and the uninteresting conversation continues in the same boring way.

I'm not completely against calling like I love to have a 1-2 hour long conversation with friends who I'm really close to and we keep laughing and lose track of time, that's what technology makes beautiful for all of us. But when these countries-apart relatives and classmates who I have never spoken to in 5 years call out of the blue, i tend to get irritated and often watch the phone ring and say "oops network issues". I know its mean and that i should give others a chance to build contact with, but that is what texts are there for right? Lets talk through texts and lets see if we can get to the calling phase!

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4 weeks ago
Midnight Sun is such an incredible teen-romance movie that I suggest everyone must watch.

The movie comes off starring a teenage girl, Katie who has this rare disease called XP or Xeroderma pigmentosum, which causes rapid degradation of DNA on the exposure to UV light. Even few seconds of sun rays can lead her to crucial disease for which she was not allowed to go to school and was home-schooled by her parents. She used to glance at her windows and good see all the kids whispering how she was a vampire and that's why could not get out in the daylight. She had a best friend, Morgan who kept her company all these years. A kid named Charlie used to skate down through her window ever since and watching him became the best part of her day.

After home-graduation during the night she passed of by the train station and played her music and guitar, which was all she did while being bored at home ever since when suddenly Charlie spots her and through Morgan tried to get to know her even more. Soon they fall in love, Katie's dad gets concerned for Katie hasn't mentioned her disease yet as she wanted to be a normal girl for few days! They'd meet at night, go to parties, different cities and absolutely fall in love when once Katie got off the trance and forgot the time, and was exposed to the sunlight when she fainted.

Her medical results were appalling which absolutely broke Charlie's heart and more than that Katie's own! Charlie's arm was broken for which he had to stop swimming, Katie gave him hope to try again while he made Katie record her music in a studio soon after they realized that her being sick won't be a reason to keep them apart. At the end, Charlie gets his scholarship, Katie eventually dies after her one last flight with Charlie, and the music Katie recorded hits millions of like.

The emotional rollercoaster the movie takes one through is absolutely incredible. The chemistry between both the main leads is astonishing at the same time, such a young love fading into oblivion because of something that wasn't even in their control is quite heartbreaking. Above all, everyone's desires come true, and even though Katie's death broke our souls, the love they possessed will always be cherished.

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Angry
4 weeks ago
Comedy has degraded to an unimaginable level in Bollywood!

Remember the wh*lesome movies like Hera-Pheri, Phir hera pheri, Dhamaal, Houseful, Welcome? Remember the spontaneity of humor that the characters depicted even reshooting the scenes multiple times and made us laugh our hearts out. There was no offensive word used, no body in particular defamed, just pure funny dialogues with clever sarcasm and dumb things that the wh*le public could relate to.

Just an*lyze today's comedy genre! Drugs, Fake Feminism, Lack of relationship in engineering, Lack of bathing in boys hostel, Lack of job in engineering, Sex, Lack of sex, excessive Sex! That's it! There goes the wh*le comedy! Sarcasm is dope! Blending one's insecurity into Sarcasm is dope! But where is the rest of the context!! Same topics just different dialogues! How long is this trend going to continue unless we all realize how degraded we have graphically become!

I hope we start appreciating the genuine and original writers and stop the teenage-issued-fake-comedy-realm!

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WTH
4 weeks ago
Kardashians have become a lifestyle! WHY THOUGH!!??

No one with an internet exposure is unknown to the Kardashians and their ever-rising glam. I can't understand what is to special about it? Modelling? Aren't there any other models? What I got through the internet was how they hit a high rise through a released sex-tape but there have been numerous ex tapes released then why them did they get too lucky?

The Kardashians are known to be over-rates and are banned from various physical glam events and yet their popularity streaks high! The show Keeping Up With the Kardashian, jeez! I was shocked at watching the difference of the teenage and adult KYLIE! She looks adorable now though but isn't it a contradiction to "be you and love your body" which is totally against the feminism basics and yet people are crazy about her!

Sometimes I feel like even the public doesn't know what their doing. One moment they treat them like queens and the other moment they keep claiming they suck while constantly talking about them! Kardashian family does have something special and i believe it is the exceptionally managed scandals that give them the hype and yet seems to maintain the fame!

Daily Drag
@Amy
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Calm
4 weeks ago
Dark humor is often misinterpreted in ways it should not be!

If you think dark humor is offensive, well there is a reason why it's called "dark" duh!

I mean there is a validation no rather a wh*le another theories why dark humor belongs to some certain group of people and the legit reason is that rest of the people want to steal away its uniqueness with their twigs of unnecessary dr*ma! Dark humor comes from the root of a depressing situation, maybe murder, maybe racism and alters it in a way that seriously I mean it when i say, "it can be funny to the people who are referred to as well" if they an*lyze it through an open mind! There are a lot of meme pages on Instagr*m that post stuff like that and unfortunately are private as they don't want their platform to like shut down but I wish there was no reason for that!

Yes I'm referring to freedom of speech and thoughts! Now most of you will bump into me saying "Dude, defaming someone's belief is not freedom of thought but legit bullying", as i said CERTAIN ELITE PEOPLE only have the power to not take things so seriously and make a wh*le scandal out of it. I'm a girl and I see these pages posting some dark stuff about females. Are they particularly trying to defame? NO! Are they funny? YES. Are they targeting only women? NO! Men are roasted as well? YES!!

So stop taking all these so seriously and just try to find the fun in all the puns!

Daily Drag
@Amy
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Calm
4 weeks ago
Blocking someone literally validates the "NO MEANS NO" slogan!

Blocking someone these days is considered as a game and a challenge for these adrenaline driven generation. I just came across a meme on Instagr*m stating your real love is probably concealed in your block list. They might have meant it as a joke obviously and I don't have any problem with the humor content it is indeed very sarcastic and funny but I personally has a toxic ex boyfriend who considers memes like this as a stupid sign-from-the-universe.

My ex is a literal psychopath, basically a 24/7 virtual stalker! I blocked him as I don't want any unnecessary interference in my life regarding every thing that I post or do! its been more than two years and he still thinks I have blocked him as I'm trying to avoid our beautiful story due to restrictions. NO JHONNY! I JUST HATE YOU AND FIND YOU EXTREMELY NEGATIVE! And there are a lot of people who keep assuming and think that the "blocking" thing is a challenge. They tease and roast people in inappropriate manner and when they are blocked, they feel superior as if the intimidated the other person but its just a sign of how low you stooped down that a person had to erase your existence from their lives!

To all the people going through this, ignore people's judgement. When people don't bring you peace but trauma instead go ahead and block them, from social media, from your life! It is not a 'hard-to-get-play where we expect you to stalk our mails and contact, we just want y'all to leave us in peace!

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4 weeks ago
Friends that are shameless yet sensitive about your situations, are a miracle!

I have always had incredible friends to support me throughout. They say real friends never get jealous, I don't believe that. I mean you will obviously be happy about the other person's success but if you fail, the jealousy is normal and I believe the real friendship lies when both of you understand that one of you is jealous and the person is comforted and once the situations turn normal the success of the other is celebrated with utmost joy!

I have had and currently have as well many friends, but there are these two girls, aastha and shambhavi and we have been together since high school. Our story goes like, sham and I were friends then grew apart, then aastha and sham were friends till her seat was changes and sham came with me and some how we became a trio in 2015. No matter what deeds any of us did, the three of us went down and the bond still remains. Sham and I have a parallel life, especially in relationships, like whenever she finds someone, i do too and we every time break up or get dumped in the same month through the same dr*ma its freaky! Aastha on the other hand always deals with our dr*mas and just laughs! Yeah laughing is all she does!

We both got our hearts not broken but like "seenzoned" yesterday and we had a call just few seconds before I started this vent and we laughed so much. It is such a blessing to have people like these in your life who NEVER judge you for who you are and what you do. I think this is where the concept of soulmates come in!

If you have people like that and you unfortunately get into some petty fights, ralk it over, cz these precious pearls are too priceless to be lost!

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4 weeks ago
Don't you wish things like magic and witchcraft even vampires were still in play?

I have watched a lot of doc*mentaries and research groups about the magic and stuff but the world is often so smitten with fakeness that it is real hard to believe these things. But movies like harry potter and shows like American horror story and Vampire Diaries got me thinking what if these are not just fiction, what if all of these have a reality that we all are clearly missing out on?

It is surreal to think how creative a human mind can get while writing a script or a novel. Things don't just knock on you brain tomb right? One must have encountered something or some whisperings through grapevine, passed through their ears and that's how the idea generated! Am I the only one who has weird theories about all these things and still believe that witched and vampires still exist and are in disguise of the human skin basically laughing at us for considering it as a mere myth?

I wish they existed! NO! I'm not an anarchist like obviously I don't want a vampire to suck my blood (If something like twilight happens then I might consider lol), and I don't want people to stick up a pin inside a handmade doll to perform telekinesis but I don't maybe I would like to believe that life is not just a 9-5 spanned journey and things like magic do exist!

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Calm
4 weeks ago
Letting go is painful but literally a turning point!

When you love someone or something, maybe a person, maybe an object or even your passion, and the wh*le world collides to make you leave it, sometimes you just have to let go!

You try, keep trying, keep failing and still you don't surrender to the atrocities but sometimes, its not about getting exhausted, its about realizing its not meant for you. When someone keeps pushing you away, when something stops rendering to you the happiness and you are left with this weird void within, you just have to accept the fact, that no matter how hard you are willing to try, it would be an abyss of darkness!

That realization forms like 70% of the your challenge. Often we would convince ourselves to not give up as that's what the philosophies teach us right? But they don't mention when and how! It is when something brings you peace, and doesn't make you feel like you are worthless is when you don't surrender. but when it becomes toxic, you gotta let go!

You might feel this excruciating pain, throughout your windpipe, you stomach and your heart would feel as if it would just explode and you might not find a purpose and life will be all grey! But, the moment you fix it in your head that there's no going back, it would be the turning point of your life!

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WTH
4 weeks ago
My best friend has been in a toxic relationship and I don't know how to get her out of it.

I don't know why the girls fall for the boys who literally don't care about anyone's feelings and it is only for the stern rules of expulsion else they would literally be the leader of the bullying squad! Why do some girls still think that being a man and being macho corresponds to guy beating and roasting the hell out of other people in order to gain that superior status?

My best friend is very sensitive and really a good person at heart. So this popular frikin' bully approaches her with all that twisted eyes, perfectly edged stupid jawline and she says yes! She said yes even after I tried my best to make things clear for her! She was so attracted by his fake enigma that she just keeps falling for him. This guy is a maniac, a psychopath, and keeps breaking up with her at least once a week, all I see is her crying and screaming and fighting and at the end of the day they just get together! I know you must be wondering that instead of trying to break them apart I should understand and accept her love but what if she is ignoring the obvious red flags as physical abuse? Every time something happens, he loses his reflexes and I have found multiple scars and imprints on her body! She says its just he can't control his anger and that he later apologizes!

I'm enough with this stupid idea of love which holds people back from thinking straight. Even if it is love, you don't deserve a toxic relationship, go fic yourself and then think of something!

Confession
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Calm
4 weeks ago
Random emptiness can really steal all your vibe huh?

Has anyone else except me had this insanely weird phase for maybe a week or two where you can just feel it in your bones that you are not your true self? The worst part being you don't know what or why or since when but this smirk of emptiness just haunts you so much and you just don't know how to end that void?

Right now, I'm in that exact same state where if someone were to ask me how I feel I would probably laugh and roll my eyes and pretend as if everything is okay as I don't want to be the old desperate me where I just zone out and keep whining about all the problems and end up irritating everyone. Don't judge, I do have amazing friends who listen to all my problems but there's a limit of ranting that I tend to cross and I am very well aware of that so to avoid all that unnecessary dr*ma I would probably act chill but I AM NOT OKAY! I don't know why! Lots of google researches tell me that it is because of the lockdown, that we are all stuck in a place and we crave for change and so does the overthinking creep in but I can't even feel tired or exhausted or even stressed. i feel NOTHING! That is what I'm scared about. I don't want to be someone who's devoid of feelings!

I hope I zone out of this soon!

Confession
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Calm
4 weeks ago
Have you ever been so aggressive that you were scared you might turn out to be a murderer?

I don't mean to exaggerate a situation, but once a certain limit is crossed, I believe anyone can easily have the drive to become a killer. Now I'm not great at psychological stuff but I am close to people who are established on the psychological platforms and since they are not bound to disclose the contents of their patients but they do talk to me in a way that i understand basic human attributes.

I have been in a dark phase. I can't openly express what as I am not confident to talk about it even in the disguise of anonymity but I would like to express how I felt. The person treated me real bad like one moment he would make me feel that I was worthy of proving myself to the world but in reality he was playing, with my heart, my body, my soul! And when I came to realize the mind games it was already too late and I was broken to shreds! I was so angry about the injustice, so frustrated that i was really scared I might kill the person and I'm dead serious I would have! I often dreamt of stabbing him 20+ times to watch him bleed and scream. I know it seems psychologically threatening and it was!

Thankfully, I got out of that rage because of some amazing people in my life and ever since then I have been working on weeding out the negativity. So to all those people who suffer from the same pain, I would like to suggest it to you, that there's no use of pondering over it as the time will come when you will be stronger than ever! And to reach that time, you need to surround yourself with people and start accepting that you have a problem that can be resolved!

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Calm
4 weeks ago
Marriage VS Living Together. Which one do you think is better?

We live in a country where the majority of the population still consider it as a sin for two people to be living together before marriage. I know and have talked to a lot of people including my family members who constitute the same category, however I can't quite get the idea of marriage and I always think Living Together is the best option ever!

When it comes to marriage, be it love or arrange, not only the family is involved but the wh*le freaking government is involved, loads of legal agreements and doc*ments, relatives who saw y'all when you were born and had time to visit after 25 years asking "Do you remember me". Thousands of cash rolled off to feed half the people we don't know but just to show off like yeah we can afford a high-status wedding? And then during the divorce, going through the old photo albums and thinking the disappointment we'd be for all those unknown faces and the time and cost of legal procedures.

Living Together however is so easy. You love someone, you live with someone you love, an*lyze all their quirky habits, live love and laugh! Of course families are involved but no external interferences right? People often say if you love someone that why cant you marry and the same people also say love is a concept of movies you have to marry who we will ask you to and everything will fall into place. Why so hypocrite? People change, priorities change, As appealing as the never ending one true love concept seems to everyone we can't deny the fact that life is unpredictable and when that unpredictability hits, the living-together couples would not have to deal with half the bullshit! And even while not separating, its better to have their own privacy!

Well, this is my opinion. Feel free to share yours!

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Calm
a month ago
Anime are so underrated! I can't wait to be a part of manga comics!

I know a lot of people who think anime are for kids and that they'd rather prefer the nudity in Game of Thrones and Euphoria than watch that crap. Well I am not going to judge its one's individual opinion (but seriously if you say that without trying it you suck at least give it a try and then from your opinion!), but personally, I have never understood the concept of cartoons and animation stuff being compared to "You still watch this? OMG How old are you?". What is this concept though? How does the depth and characterization of a show be defined on the basis of age? Well if you're talking about DORA who can't find her bag even after I shout a thousand times that its in her hand, that's a totally different thing.

But anime on a wh*le has changed my wh*le concept these days. I have always been a huge fan of Beyblade and Pokémon ever since I was a kid and i never really stopped watching them even as a teenager and now as an adult. Recently I tried some other as well, Avatar the last airbender, Death Note and recently I have been watching Demon Slayer. The character an*lysis of each and every character is beyond perfection! Death Note particularly has its essence of tragedy and dark humor that is not kid-friendly but something that the unjust world feels.

I genuinely believe the shows have much more structure and complexity than the every day heist and high-school stories and that everyone should definitely try them atleast once before judging these incredible shows.

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Calm
a month ago
Is it just me or all of us try to act like our favourite characters

I have often found myself being someone else. I never really noticed like who or why or how but I knew something was up with my behavioral pattern until my friends and family confronted me about it and it hit real hard!

I had been really happy for the past two months and suddenly I started acting weird and like dominating all around and I felt something's up but then I was told how I tend to change my active patterns according to the series I have been watching. When I watch F.R.I.E.N.D.S i act all goofy like phoebe and that's why I was so chill but now I have been watching Locked-up, a thriller Spanish dr*ma regarding prisoners(female) and the drastic changes and mortifications they go through.

Now that I think of it, it all makes sense. The phase when I watched euphoria was when i started acting like "I need what I want and nothing can change my mind" while I'm not so controlling, its like in my head I was playing zulema zahir (That character). I often wonder why we want to drown into some fictional character and change ourselves. Maybe that is the reason why fictions are so famous, it makes us be anyone we desire.

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Calm
a month ago
Is it just me or all of us try to act like our favourite characters

I have often found myself being someone else. I never really noticed like who or why or how but I knew something was up with my behavioral pattern until my friends and family confronted me about it and it hit real hard!

I had been really happy for the past two months and suddenly I started acting weird and like dominating all around and I felt something's up but then I was told how I tend to change my active patterns according to the series I have been watching. When I watch F.R.I.E.N.D.S i act all goofy like phoebe and that's why I was so chill but now I have been watching Locked-up, a thriller Spanish dr*ma regarding prisoners(female) and the drastic changes and mortifications they go through.

Now that I think of it, it all makes sense. The phase when I watched euphoria was when i started acting like "I need what I want and nothing can change my mind" while I'm not so controlling, its like in my head I was playing zulema zahir (That character). I often wonder why we want to drown into some fictional character and change ourselves. Maybe that is the reason why fictions are so famous, it makes us be anyone we desire.

Daily Drag
@Amy
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Vent 136
WTH
a month ago
Why does brown parents consider "therapy" as a delusional desire?

First of all, to all the brown kids out there, well i was about to write "Don't listen to your parents" but if someone takes me too seriously I might ruin lives here hahaha but like when it comes to depression, all y'all would hear is that it is a state of mind, something that the media has splashed onto us and we end up believing it exists when it doesn't. That's not true! you are not delusional! you are not going crazy! You might be going through some trauma and trust me its okay to be broken. The pain will pass away!

And secondly, if there is some brown adult out there, why the hell is therapy still a taboo to you? I have observed it so often that whenever someone asks them about it they're like "we went through the same age ranges, we never had an issue! It's all due to the bullshit movies you watch". Yeah dude you guys didn't have issues and you know why? It was because you guy DIDN'T EVEN KNOW IT EXISTED! You were so caught up in the ordinary life, that to get into touch with your emotions was kind of restricted and you just did what everyone else did!

Today's generation is invincible and so impulsive to explore the world, the people and especially themselves and that's when we realize what our hearts feel and its okay to be that way. Would therapists earn so high if it were to be treated just as a hobby? Are u kidding me??

Normalise therapies!

Confession
@Amy
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Vent 136
Disgusted
a month ago
Why are I-phone so overrated? Its annoying!

Yes I-phone is a brand but isn't it so overrated? Seriously why the hell are those phones so expensive. I used it for a year and I'm still so comfortable with android. The other one though is so not user friendly. I mean look at the size of I-phone 5 and how much it costs? Other phones like one plus and even Samsung are underrated these days.

What's more annoying is people showing it off. Lime okay you got an i-phone? You rich bruh? You family rich bruh? Good for you but like stop with the mirror selfies already, it is so exhausting now. All over social media, all those mirror selfies with face hidden, plain background, casual outfit but that ever-shining apple mark! One-two-three? Cool! but like consistently 45 photos with same exact thing is too obsessive don't you think?

People who think that the ones who think i-phone people are too much are the real ones who are jealous but seriously its not about jealousy its about having something that makes you all "he is the i-phone mirror selfie guy" and that's the only thing that you would have on your identity mark! Its just SAD.

Daily Drag
@Amy
VPoints 2189
Supporters 88
Vent 136
Disgusted
a month ago
The crime reporting system has a wh*le other game of nepotism as well.

The movies like article 15 are indeed the need of the hour for our today's media-public perception. A wide range of crime spectrum has been unravelling in the country and is growing by every fli*kering second. However, the public only knows the half of it!

The SSR's suicide is inhaling the heat since two months, the fact that many students all across the nation have been committing suicide due to the pressure of virtual classes though, NEGLECTED. For hit-and-run and huge crime cases, a superstar would be allegedly proven innocent but an innocent might go to jail for the lack of efficient sources. If a middle class girl is raped, and the suspect is her father, it would be a scandalous show by the media. But if a middle class girl goes through some same thing and there is no valid suspect, to save the reputation of the police department, it is son made to fade away. There have been a lot of fake-case-reporting which make the authorities exhausted and mend their mentalities in a way that similar cases would be fake as well, but what if there is a 1 percent chance that it isn't? Wouldn't it be devastating to sleep with all that guilt that you could have saved that one life tragedy?

The authorities have to start acting responsible and instead of saving their back focus more on saving the society!

Confession
@Amy
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Vent 136
WTH
a month ago
Being seen-zoned on social media can literally escalate the level of anxiety!

Being left on the seen-zone status is so frustrating especially when someone we love or are close to does that to us. I;m not being over sensitive like yeah I do realize people have their own life but seriously if you call me your best friend then you can't leave me on read for more than a day period! There are some unstated rules that EXIST!
Some people are just trying to be fake saying oh I was busy doing this and that but oh you clearly had time to view my stories and comment on bunch of cute dog pictures but you could not reply to my "Hey its an emergency call me ASAP"? How dumb do they think I am?
When someone is going through a rough state and they realize that they need space then okay just tell me and take a break but like if you want to avoid me have the guts to at least tell that on my face or if not give some assured hints!
People be acting so chill and stuff like hey babe wt you doing and then ghost you the next very moment like wth!? It's like they are either so not interested which is fine tbh everyone has their own likes but some people just want to test our patience like how far we will go or endure their dr*ma and it is so frustrating!

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@Amy
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Supporters 88
Vent 136
Calm
a month ago
Taylor swift has got me crazy on lyrics! How can she write so beautifully?

I wasn't really a fan of English-musics as you see I was always someone who admired bollywood tadka and masala and the item songs and the melodies. Apparently around 2016 I had a crush who was a huge fan of Taylor Swift and well as all of us try new things that our special someone loves , I did too and damn did I love it?!!

The first song that I heard was "Love-Story", beautiful melody, a story vividly depicted. Then i listened to "Mine, Blank Space, Never getting back together, Trouble", Oh my god that lady is like the goddess of words! The way she writes her own song, relates skin-deep with so many people going through so many emotions in their lives! Her new album "Folklore" has been one of the most versatile music tracks of all times. The lyrics are so beautifully crafted together to express the pain and hatred and the letting go!

It is often said and proved that she stabs back at all of her exes through the means of her lyrics. I think that is smartly incredible, as they say when you're good at something never do it for free. I believe she writes everything with someone else's point view and that's what makes all her songs so special! I'm so thankful to be able to hear her music!

Daily Drag
@Amy
VPoints 2189
Supporters 88
Vent 136
Calm
a month ago
Drugs are a source of happiness since it sucks up all our pain! Why do we want to live without pain though?

Why are drugs being promoted as "cool"? Why does every other teenage kid round the corner is drowning in fumes? Why are the most famous rap songs extracting the wh*le fame since it promotes "being high"? When the wh*le damn world, the wh*le damn scientifically equipped researchers say that it is toxic, why do we still go back to that same path?

They say, "It's a vibe you won't understand" and try to act all cool and bad-ass kids. I am sorry honey but I don't even want to understand your delusional land where you think you are some Pablo Escobar, looking all macho and stuff (I mean if you have a wh*le empire because of drugs then... lol did i just support pablo oops just kidding though), as to me and people with the same mindset as me, you are just some shallow human who lacks the individuality to be something of his own!

Drugs take away your pain, and takes you to the cloud nine where all your deepest darkest desires come true.. TEMPORARILY! Yes, we all are going through something and nobody wants pain, but why choose something that gives you temporary peace only to render you with a lifetime of tardiness?
You wanted to try it for an adventure, well okay. But the moment you start taking it for addiction, or looking cool you're a dead soul who is just afraid of everything!

Daily Drag
@Amy
VPoints 2189
Supporters 88
Vent 136
Disgusted
a month ago
The famous opinion on green tea! Why do people even consume it?

We are all living an in influencing world right? Especially whilst this pandemic, we all abide by social media, television, other advertisements. There I saw Shradhha Kapoor's flat belly and she being so happy while consuming green tea, so apparently it reduces the belly size. I'm am so NOT ATHLETIC. I can't exercise or work-out, not because I don't want to but I tried and I failed just too many times, so "Green tea it is", is what I thought.

I was so excited to get fit and bought two huge packages for 2 months. Everyone told me I would soon regret it but I was too into Shradhha's confidence and smile. The pack said "no sugar no calories" or something like that so i didn't add anything else and the moment I drank!!

It is literally one of the worst things that i have ever tasted! How can people drink it? Aren't there any alternatives for antioxidants? To minimize the effect I even added sugar and even honey, but unfortunately it still was so bad! Why would shradhha smile so much while drinking that? I know its stupid of me to ask that like they are entertainers but I just felt betrayed.

Warm water with honey and lemon is so much better!

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@Amy
VPoints 2189
Supporters 88
Vent 136
Calm
a month ago
Justin Bieber and Selena Gomez's former relationship scares me about commitment.

Justin Bieber and Selena Gomez announced their relationship as official when I was still a kid like not even into my teenage zone and well since I'm an Indian these news would make my family be like "These kids are getting out of hands" reactions, but over the years when I started understanding the magical realms of feelings and emotions, i just got connected to that couple maybe too personally than needed.

The sudden halts in their relationships, the awkward vibes at award shows, the way their individual clips would be merged together all over the social media, it used to break to my heart. I used to think, if they still loved each other or if they did how hard it must have been to just act like strangers in front of all those eyes who could see right through them! And then suddenly I would get the news that they got back together and I would jump so high in excitement as if my someone special had returned.

The last time when they split, I wasn't as shocked; I felt they needed a break and it would still be alright. But when I read the news of him and hailey being engaged, and hailey being one of Selena's friends! I was speechless! I don't know how one is supposed to feel you know? Was I not enough or why her? Do these thoughts come off? Selena is a gorgeous woman obviously but I often thought if she felt insecure about all this. Through many of her songs, the lyrics have been connected to her relationships with Justin multiple times and most of the time they completely match! It just scares me if commitment can be broken too soon.

Anyway I'm sure the three of them are happy with their lives and wish them all the luck!

Daily Drag
@Amy
VPoints 2189
Supporters 88
Vent 136
Calm
a month ago
You never get the same person twice.

Change is the only constant that we can find; what a beautiful irony isn't it? No matter how much we love or hate some situations or people or even certain attributes of our own-selves, they are all bound to change. Some people say that they are afraid of the change and that they keep holding onto the broken branches, but the truth is, even during that phase, the pain, the anxiety makes them even more flexible to such situations.

"You never get the same person twice", is a concept that has been revolving in my head since morning. No matter how close you are or were, you are never the same person you once were! Your patience, endurance, irritability everything keeps changing with respect to your environment. So if someone comes up to you and tells you "You've changed", don't be offended because they are stating the facts! You did change, and so did they and there is absolutely nothing wrong with that. If that thought makes you wonder if you changed in a bad way, then being reflective is one of the magical things that can ever happen to you right? Ponder over it and try to get rid of that negativity!

When you let someone go from your life and then when they come back, stop your impulses for a moment before making the forever-together promises based on the past. You both have changed it might not really workout again right?

Try to embrace the change and be a better human!

Relationship Family
@Amy
VPoints 2189
Supporters 88
Vent 136
Calm
a month ago
My brother and I have had a weird relationship throughout. I'm happy where we are right now!

My brother and I were always the fighting ones. We would go the these relatives house and there would be such good bonding amidst the siblings, and we would look at each other like "ugh hell no!". hahaah I know little fights are normal but this was different, We loathed each other! He was given a special treatment by mom, he still is!!1(no one believes me) but i have always been the jealous kid and HATED that, and he hated me being so well lame as he says.

Over the time, he fell in love and told me about his relationship, that was actually the first time things were not so hateful. I supported him, it was beautiful. Then he went off for college, the long-distance didn't work out and well he was still away when i fell in love. Since I didn't have that kind of authority I could not openly tell him but like I thought he would be okay with it. HE WAS NOT AND MADE ME END IT. He became a totally different person while the time he stayed away and I was broken.

But then, now I'm away and he's home and I guess the real him is coming all back! I never thought I would say this but like he has become my strength! We are so close! We share everything with each other and support each other through all the ups and downs. I don't really know when this transition happened or even whether it was sudden or gradual but like I'm so happy he exists in my life! I'm so proud to call him my brother! I love him so much!!

Confession
@Amy
VPoints 2189
Supporters 88
Vent 136
Calm
a month ago
Mood swings are the worst! They change your wh*le identity in seconds.

Mood swings are one of the toxic traits that I possess and I am not at all proud of it. A lot of people think its cool to straight-up calling out people on their face but I'm not that kind of a person. I'm very sensitive and that is exactly how i perceive others. I hate to hurt people even if they hurt me back. However, the ever-growing mood swings are posting my identity as someone who's angry, frustrated and mean and that is just not me!

Especially during the beginning and end of the menstruating, as per the research mood swings are normal, but since I have them all way long, during the cycle they are EXTREME! I used to be everyone's "go-to" person, i guess i still am, but recently the way t hat I'm reacting and my sudden outbu*st might drift people away and that is something that I'm really scared about! What if I end up losing everyone of my closest people due to some temporary hormonal changes.

Its not like I don't know what's happening. I know when i'm about to being rude or unnecessarily about to create a scene. I even hear a tiny faded voice in my head saying "DON'T REACT KEEP CALM", but well the darkness seems to overpower every time! I have made a daily reminder and a journal so that I'm able keep track of my mental performance. I hope it all works out soon!

Daily Drag
@Amy
VPoints 2189
Supporters 88
Vent 136
Calm
a month ago
Are you broken? Are you tired of seeking validations from people? This is for letting it all go!

Void of my midnight thoughts
Filled with the fights we fought
All I want you to do is stay
But in the end you always say
Go just go..
Let me be, like a wild dark flower
Go just go..
Let me leave, to retain my power

You gave up on our battle
Before I even loaded my weapons
How could I sanctify my soul with your fake ammunitions?
You gave me a hope and a purpose
Just to make me feel so worthless,
I still forgive you cz unlike you I’m still a human

The blood flow in my veins
Still whisper your name
This time, I know ain’t right
So I’mma leave being your dark knight.
So go just go
I’m letting you be, the wild dark flower.
Now go just go
Go do your thing, and retain your power.