i am a sophomore in high school who's struggling to stay on top of my grades. school has been especially hard since COVID, and even before then, it was a challenge for me to function. i have MDD, PTSD, ADHD, and Anxiety. what a lovely clusterfuck i have going on, right? :) i'm constantly emotionally and physically abused. my best isn't good enough for my mother. i have to always meet HER standards or else i'm just being "lazy and irresponsible". i'm trying my absolute hardest, but getting myself out of bed and dressed properly is a struggle in itself. i can barely handle the fuckton of work my teachers pile onto me daily, let alone focus enough to understand the lesson. i can feel my sanity and will to live slipping away with each passing day. i don't know how much longer i can handle being belittled and berated for every mistake i make. i've considered running away with my best friend several times, since our mothers are both EXTREMELY similar with their "parenting" methods. my mother claims i need her, but in reality i don't. i don't need her for jackshit. i feel like her puppet. she pulls the strings and makes me do things to compensate for whatever fuckups she's had in the past. sorry, but that has not one damn thing to do with me and i refuse to let you continue to control me as if i cannot make decisions on my own.