Near the end of May, I met a boy online. He is super cool and nice and I am glad I met him because quarantine would've been so much more boring and lonely without him. The thing is though, while talking for months, he developed feelings for me while I have not. He thought that I liked him as well but somewhat recently, I'd say last month or the beginning of this month even, the truth came out and I had hurt him emotionally. I had an anxiety attack because I was scared that he would never want to talk to me or wouldn't want to be friends anymore. Things are somewhat better now, but we still have our awkward/bad moments. I wish we just had a normal friendship where things were just...normal.. and not weird at all. Also, even though I am 100% sure I don't like him, I still don't like it when he brings up his ex girlfriend. It just makes me kind of sad for some reason. I have never been in a relationship before and knowing that he has makes me feel upset when it really shouldn't. I'm getting better with those emotions but yeah.