I have seen some shit. I was diagnosed with PTSD at the age of 11. It has seriously affected how I deal with my emotions. I just shove them aside and try to forget that. Because of that I never came to terms with what happened all those years ago. Whenever I lay in bed trying to sleep or am not doing something, thoughts and memories of then come rushing it. I constantly try and distract myself to avoid facing them. I don't want to remember what happened. I don't want to face it. I just want to run but it keeps catching up. Its started to affect my memory. I don't know what to do.