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VPoints 6
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Vent 1
Frustrated
2 months ago
I only want to make others happy and help them through a tough time like my friends helped me <3

This is my first time venting on something like this so I'm so sorry if this isn't good. In every friend group I've been in I have always been the "therapist" friend. I want my friends to trust me enough so that they feel safe around me and are able to express their feelings around me so that I can help them get through all of their problems. When they have a problem they normally come to me so I can help them and after we talk about it I comfort them and help with anything I can, and when I see them smile I get happy and its really the only thing that makes me happy because my friends and family are the only thing that I care about. I don't care if something happens to me as long as my friends are all ok. of course I have problems of my own but I deal with those by myself because I don't want to bu*den any of my friends and I cant tell my family because I don't trust them and I've hid who I really am to them and they never believe anything I say so why would I bother then with my problems if they just minimize them and make me feel even worse? I have social anxiety so its hard for me to make friends with people I don't know so I value the ones I have more than I value myself because I want to make them happy. I wish I could help everybody and suffer their problems so they wouldn't have to. Every time I see someone happy after I helped them I feel like I made a difference in their life even if it was a little one but it still fills me with joy and a will to live this cruel world, My friends are one of the most important things in my life and even though I hate myself for bottling up my emotions all my problems disappear when I make someone happy. The reason I try to make everything okay is because I care about them and I know what is feels like being sad and depressed, I would never want them to feel that ever in their life. The people that befriended me in my life have changed me and made me feel like I'm somebody that can do great things, without my friends I don't think I would be living right now, They have made me so happy in my life so I want them to be happy. Everyone of my friends are amazing and I wish I was like them because they stopped me from doing something terrible to myself that I would regret without even knowing that they helped me that much. I wish I could do more for them because they saved me so many times and gave me a source of light in the darkness when I really needed it. They have been a really important if not the most important thing that has happened to me and because of them I'm getting to see my little sister grow up. If i had ended my life I would have never met some of the best people in my life and the best little sister ever. Its still hard to deal with my problems by myself but my friends and my sister are the reason I keep going. So anybody that is in a dark place right now, find a reason to live whether it be your family, friends, pets, anything because it helps a lot and if you don't think those are reasons to live then keep living for me because even though we don't know each other I care about you and so do other people, even if you don't think they do, they really do. I'm still put others first and i love doing it because you can be the light that someone needs in their life and save someone from doing something that they would regret like my friends did for me, and if you put others first like me just remember that you are also important so don't be afraid to have some alone time and take care of yourself every once and a while. I hope this makes somebody happy or gives somebody a reason to live, have an amazing day <3

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VPoints 6
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Vent 1
WTH
3 months ago
I shouldn't like you. i have a crush on you. even though i am inlove with another.

I shouldn't like you because I just met you. I shouldn't like you because I barely know you. but why do I smile when I see you. why do I feel those butterflies as if you were going to be mine. but I do already have a mine. you shouldn't be in my head but you are. questioning everything that I know about love. I shouldn't like you, but I want to get to know you. I'm so intrigued in this new flame of friendship that maybe I want to entinguish the flame i have on the other end of the spectrum. i am just unsure because I'm probably not even your type/ you probably don't think of me in that way since we are new. i just have this feeling. that maybe it can be. it's a possibility since life is very unpredictable. you were so unpredictable in my life. kinda funny how I met you in chemistry. i want to form our own chemistry. but I shouldn't . i just shouldn't. platonic friendship . is that what i really want?

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Angry
8 months ago
My 'best friend' of many years cut me off unexpectedly, and time apart has made me realize how terrible they were to me

I was inspired to look for somewhere to vent after I saw a series of posts talking about behaviors that would negatively affect someone's mentally ill partner, and i, as a mentally ill person who had been best friends with a terrible person for 1/3 of my life, quickly recognized every single scenario as reflecting the way she treated me.

For context, we met in 6th grade. We'd been friends for 6-ish years. She was always jokingly categorized as an angry/grumpy person, which excused a lot of her rudeness early on. Throughout our relationship, there was weird tinges of wanting something more, mostly on her side. I just wanted to be wanted. Nearing the end, we almost acted entirely like a couple. A toxic one. We acted like were dating, without ever explicitly saying it, but we were. Basically, what I'm trying to get across is we were really close. I spilled to her things I wouldn't tell other people out of embarrassment. Stuff like more nerdy/'cringey' interests of mine, things that i deal with as a result of my mental illness, etc, etc.. Now i realize I was wasting my fucking time with her.

I always tried to be a nice friend; I complimented her, listened to her rant about the things she loved, supported her hobbies, showed her affection, etc, etc.. When I care about people, I always try my hardest. She doesn't.

She was always mean, rude, standoffish. She would rarely return any of the positive energy I gave her. She never really acted like she really cared about me.

She would tell me to shut up, respond dryly, be offensive, etc when i talked about things i liked and wanted to share them with her. She wouldn't have it. It made me feel bad for liking them or even talking at all.

She would physically push me away and whine like a child whenever I wanted to show her basic affection like hugging or holding hands. I understand when people want personal space, but it was constant. And when you want personal space, you don't PHYSICALLY push people away with force; You talk to them and ask them to stop. She just made me feel pathetic for trying.

She would rarely ever just compliment me, or act sweet, unless it was performative/in front of her other friends. She wanted to project that were made for each other to them i guess, which is funny, because I later found out through one of her lovelier friends that'd she often talk trash about me to her other friends about when I'd rant about fictional characters or movies I liked. The friend said it lightheartedly, assuming that I knew and that we were both tired of each other in a playful way. I didn't know and we weren't. My 'friend' stuttered like I wasn't supposed to know. I brushed it off in the moment, but later I kept thinking about it.

In conjunction with being rude about me talking about my interests, she was rude about them in general. She'd say she didn't like it, or make faces and act like it was weird. Which hurt, because weeks or even DAYS later she'd turn around and talk about how in love with it she is. About 70% of her current interests are a result of my influence, and it sucks so much knowing that.

All her responses to me talking about serious issues in my life felt to flat. and fake. Like she didn't really care; just wanted this convo to be over with. Wanted me to Think she cared.

She would always jokingly say she doesn't want to be friends anymore; I don't know how much of a joke those statements were now.


One of the most positive things I saw her post publicly about me was saying '[she] always makes me feel better'. I hate looking back on it.

I dealt with this for 1/3 OF MY LIFE. I let her make me feel bad for THAT LONG. I NEVER TORE AWAY BECAUSE THE FEW TIMES SHE'D BE SWEET TO ME OR RESPOND NOT LIKE A COMPLETE BITCH, I HUNG ONTO THEM. I LET THEM EXCUSE EVERYTHING ELSE SHE DID. SHE EMOTIONALLY ABUSED ME. SHE'D SHOW ME AFFECTION RARELY, USUALLY PERFORMATIVELY, AND THEN IMMEDIATELY SWITCH BACK TO BEING MEAN AND STANDOFFISH. SHE USED ME TO MAKE HERSELF FEEL BETTER AND BECAUSE SHE KNEW I'D CARE AND THEN DIDN'T BOTHER PUTTING FORWARD THE SAME. I DON'T THINK IT WAS INTENTIONAL BECAUSE SHE ALSO HAS ISSUES, BUT BEING SAD DOESN'T JUSTIFY THE WAY YOU TREAT OTHER PEOPLE EITHER.


One moment that really stood out to me-- that really hurt my heart when it happened-- was one night during a call with her. I told her 'i love you'. I always tell my closest friends that a lot. I guess it's because I know I like reassurance, and I'm lonely, so I give it to others. I let them know I love them because, well, I do! Instead of a simple "I love you too" or a heart emoji, a fucking thank you, anything; she told me "can you stop saying 'i love you' so much? it's annoying.". my mood immediately dipped. i said sorry. WHY would i say sorry to her? it makes me sad just thinking about it again.


One night I cried because I thought I had feelings for her, but it turns out I was just conditioned to think what she was doing to me was ""love"". I feel so sick to my stomach looking back. I know she doesn't even feel bad about it now. She just treated me like her fucking dog on a leash for 6 yrs and then stopped talking to me when I wasn't fun to play with anymore. I want to cry. She probably doesn't even think about how the way she acted affected me at all. because SHE'S always the victim. I feel pathetic for even trying. I feel like I wasted my time. I have an actual best friend who cared about me, and who I bond with so naturally, and who's behavior actually reflects them loving me, but I said this chick was my ''''best friend''''' because they said I was theirs-- fuck off. I hope I never have to see her again, but I also want to tell her how terrible she's made me feel. I want her to feel guilty. But looking at even her name makes me want to vomit.


I think what makes it hurt the most is that she said we were going to live together. we were going to get married and have a future together, and then she cut me off. I know it sounds stupid, but it would've been fun. I'm the loneliest person I know. And I don't have the best family life. I cling to promises like that. I daydream about what that could mean for me. And then she cut me off. She didn't reply to anything I'd say. She stopped caring. And it hurt me.

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Relationship Friends
@Floof
VPoints 5
Supporters 1
Vent 2
Frustrated
one year ago
An impatient and demanding friend is all too frustrating

I owe my friend $40, but told her that I won't be able to give it to her until after the holidays and she agreed. Then she texted me last night asking me if I had that $40, despite our previous conversation about it. It really bothers me when I give her an estimated time and/or date that I'll be able to give her the money I owe her and then she comes to me weeks BEFORE the date I gave her and asks me if I have the money

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Relationship Friends
@Floof
VPoints 5
Supporters 1
Vent 2
Frustrated
one year ago
An impatient and demanding friend is all too frustrating

I owe my friend $40, but told her that I won't be able to give it to her until after the holidays and she agreed. Then she texted me last night asking me if I had that $40, despite our previous conversation about it. It really bothers me when I give her an estimated time and/or date that I'll be able to give her the money I owe her and then she comes to me weeks BEFORE the date I gave her and asks me if I have the money

Relationship Friends
@linda
VPoints 1172
Supporters 32
Vent 364
Calm
2 years ago
Love American Style When a Polish Immigrant Matches With Miss Minnesota

Dottie Cannon, a former Miss Minnesota, found Mr. Right after going on 70 Match dates.

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Relationship Friends
@gurmeet
VPoints 1142
Supporters 43
Vent 241
Calm
3 years ago
What does it mean when a girl smiles at you every time she sees you?

What does it mean when a girl smiles at you every time she sees you? Does she like me?????????????????????????????

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