Relationship Family
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VPoints 5
Supporters 0
Vent 1
Frustrated
4 days ago
My mom literally doesn't understand how mental illness works and it pisses me off

I am a sophomore in high school who's struggling to stay on top of my grades. school has been especially hard since COVID, and even before then, it was a challenge for me to function. i have MDD, PTSD, ADHD, and Anxiety. what a lovely clusterfuck i have going on, right? :) i'm constantly emotionally and physically abused. my best isn't good enough for my mother. i have to always meet HER standards or else i'm just being "lazy and irresponsible". i'm trying my absolute hardest, but getting myself out of bed and dressed properly is a struggle in itself. i can barely handle the fuckton of work my teachers pile onto me daily, let alone focus enough to understand the lesson. i can feel my sanity and will to live slipping away with each passing day. i don't know how much longer i can handle being belittled and berated for every mistake i make. i've considered running away with my best friend several times, since our mothers are both EXTREMELY similar with their "parenting" methods. my mother claims i need her, but in reality i don't. i don't need her for jackshit. i feel like her puppet. she pulls the strings and makes me do things to compensate for whatever fuckups she's had in the past. sorry, but that has not one damn thing to do with me and i refuse to let you continue to control me as if i cannot make decisions on my own.

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Relationship Myself
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VPoints 5
Supporters 1
Vent 1
Frustrated
6 days ago
Self-hate i guess .

I'm so fucking stupid, irresponsible, ugly, useless, worthless. I can't even understand half the shit i'm told... I'm, the worst.. the only good thing I've done was save her from drowning.. but that's not enough. I'M A FUCKING IDIOT WHAT THE HELL AM I SUPPOSED TO DO!? I HATE EVERYTHING ABOUT MYSELF!! WHY DO YOU FUCKING CARE!? I'm just In the way.. I laugh Instead of cry. I smile more than I frown.. But not because I'm happy, It's to protect them. MOM ABANDONED ME! Dad was there to help, And I love him for that but, I WASN'T WORTH IT! I'M HOPELESS!

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Confession
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VPoints 9
Supporters 2
Vent 1
Frustrated
4 weeks ago
My streams and how i dont feel happy bcus of 2 ppl

So, I'm a streamer. And I had just turned into a teenager, I have just started on my way and my dad and his girlfriend want me to take breaks like, "oh read a book, or draw!" I don't enjoy reading unless I want to, and i draw when i want to. its my decision. I'm streaming because I want to be happy with my newfound career, and to make others happy. They just don't see my enjoyment do they? I want to do this a lot. so much, today someone for the first time donated to me, i was so happy. yet my dad doesn't give me support on the career neither does hos gf. I just wish I could stream without being told to shut up or to get off. they are loud all the time. Then. Why can I? when they are not home, its escape into my world of happiness in streams. My friends and I laugh a lot about things, I am going to become like dream and the others but..sometimes things hold me down..like my dad.

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Relationship Family
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VPoints 32
Supporters 2
Vent 2
Frustrated
a month ago
Abusive parents .that hurt me mentally

My parents are still abusing me and when i confront them they tell me to shut up, and when i ask to listen to music in the shower they yell at me and say no... plus they have taken me away from all my friends so i have no one to talk to,

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Confession
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VPoints 3
Supporters 0
Vent 1
Frustrated
a month ago
Holy shit i cant do it anymore please

Im listening to $uicideboy$ and holy shit their music is good but its bringing back all the bullshit feelings While im screaming and crying the lyrics its like i can refeel the physical feelings from alll those times i held a knife against my neck

Grievance Others
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VPoints 13
Supporters 3
Vent 1
Frustrated
2 months ago
Toxic family/ household / anxiety / depression .

I honestly don't feel good about the person I am because of my mother , I get called names and stuff and it's hard to feel good about yourself when every-time you get in trouble or you do something bad it's like someone is picking on you . my parents parenting style is garbage , and I've become dependent on people I've just met to vent to and emotional support . smh

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Relationship Family
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VPoints 32
Supporters 2
Vent 2
Frustrated
2 months ago
Toxic parents and how they treat me

So recently my parents have slapped me and yelled at me a lot because I had a phone that i wasn't supposed to have.It resulted in the police getting called my dad getting bite myself... I was in the children's home until November 3rd and i got home and everything went to shit. parents can hardly talk to me... So that brings me today.. i bought like 6 scrunchies and used my moms card. instead of asking me civilly she accused me right on the spot yes i did it. but she took out her anger by yelling and saying rude explicit stuff about me and how i need to be able to apologize after.. Little did the bitch know i was about to apologize but then she pulled getting her and my sister food and leaving me out so now I'm not so sorry.

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